update the weekend

The weekend is approaching, today we are all in place a national holiday, including my two daughters, so we gathered all day as a happy little family, I'm glad I still have them, who can make me smile and makes me want to live 1000 years ,Apparently the love that I've been looking for love as long as it can make people lose their common sense, it's only true love I get from my two daughters,I've been wrong all this time, assess the meaning of true love that I once thought I could get from a man who called him, ahhh, although the condition of my body was getting weaker, tired, headache, nose bleed, oh, I'm tired of taking drugs this, last night I forced myself to exercise I was very hobbies, yoga and jogging.I think I just want to fight this disease, but it did not stand my body defense, ahhh I remember I was not the age of 29 years, the Doctor who examined me continue to call me, uhhg, I ignore, in the afternoon I forced my body to a cold sweat, head weight, abdominal pain, I was forced to swim with my little daughter, because she was off all day at home, pity, because there are no friends to play.though it was going to pass out of the body, but so excited to see my little girl had enough pain medication that I feel pain,about my daughters, I never taught them to excess, I let them do what they want, but I teach them to live independently, do not ever feel afraid that we are in a state right, and thank my two daughters, understand what I mean, I never taught them to hate people who harm us,I am grateful for the little guy, smart and understands what her mother felt, with the limited space of our environment, our lives just the school, the internet, watch tv, but every day of the week I always encourage my daughters to go to the mall, eating the restaurant,, do not need an expensive, our togetherness we felt it,Honestly since I moved from the first new FRAGILE, I never knew the neighbors, let alone to gather, mmmmm I do not usually swapped small talk, as though we are living in a society shows, always speak good words, but false, I do not like that way, for my neighbors, if they reprove me well I said well good, but if they let me, why I should be good at themhahaha that's crazy but I, I do not like to hide what I feel, I can forgive, but I could not be better as it once was, in fact I know them well together, they always hurt me, and I never want to hurt them , there is a funny story, and I think this little game, TELL HER, I WILL NEVER SEE YOU ALSO YOU  ALSO FRIENDS, and the woman in question ALSO TOLD ME I broke up AT HER bOYFRIEND, because of me, hahaha I would laugh, I just wondering why they have to say that they had broken up, but apparently they are still together,....because I never cared, they still together or they break up,, I'm confused with the old people like that, the question is, why they should be talking to me that they had broken up, ahahaku know, they're afraid Kalaw I know they are still together, they think I'm going to take profits because I made ​​them meet,, ahhh wrong, why do you who I think is a smart man, knows religion and have a god, still scared of me that obviously I was stupid,hey to anyone who was there in my character is, please save and record in your heart, or ask your god, (jasmine which I never intend to bring you good, it never occurred in the liver is to make money out of your relationship, or I think you'll make a fool of you, separate you, uhhh here you will realize one day that I had good intentions, not bad you guys think, thought that a god,I'm happy to see you together  in real life, not in cyberspace, and I'm pretty happy with all my adventures, so for me, life is just try to be good eacother, always think well of others, realize that we are not perfect, no matter how much money we have now, we do not take it off, so do not because you think money can buy the world, buy self esteem (if I still had no self esteem, so if someone is offering to buy me, I said nothing more could I selling, hahaha),,,some say that I'm a player, ahh for me, living virtual world or real world, if we are not so well our players are in the fun of, only those who lose in the play it is said, that I was a player, hehe, well, about 4.5 guy online u all wrong haha, i have many guy arun me because i nice, and remember i single, no one yet I am applying for a real, if only to talk, I love you, ahhh I was old enough to be a fool, ehehe good night, want to rest first head of the hospital again next week, my nose would bleed again taking medicine before sleeping, I hope the day and time we can use it before that time arrives, the day when we can not breathe, so you should try to be useful for both human others, big hugss for all my friends,anyone forget, if you can still read my blog, it mean I was still able to write, though in a slightly unhealthy situation, and if you still see nick name jasmine, it is still online hehe i mean i still alive even in bed , muaaaaaah all, GOD bless you all, wish u luck,,,,,,,

2 weeks of very heavy

It seems like everything is still not over, I went through problem after problem with the heart was frozen, with a fake smile that I must give my daughter a second front, and the people around me.after the incident two weeks ago could make me hate it with a friend who blames me for no reason, and finally she came to apologize, and she hides what is actually happening is, ahhhhh I'm tired of the adult human has no brains.
 I own quite tired with all the problems of my life that still could be done, I got the flue virus, the first one of the least of my daughter, was lucky she got well after being taken medicine.while my body ached and I think it's just a common cold, and I try to just take medicine that is always there at home,but it turns out one morning, I felt my vision blurred, my left eye did not clearly see, it turns out right I look in the mirror there is a blood clot in the eye white, mmm I try with regular eye drops as well but it was only briefly recovered, and the next morning I felt there was a strange in my body, dizziness, fever, heat, cold, until I can not stand, but I must stay I should not be sick,and I presume it's just a common cold sore, but it's up to one week, my pain, still have not recovered even worse I feel, but I must be strong and endure for the sake of my two daughters.
 Finally on Tuesday, I fell and fainted in the bathroom, oh god that time no one at home because both my daughter's early morning they had gone to school,I don't knows how long I fell unconscious, I realized it myself, I feel there is someone to wake me up, but no one at home,I really can not stand, my body condition is weak, and I can not act that I just got regular flue, but who can help me, I tried to call my ex-husband, because there is no one who I could ask you please, to take me go doctor,and it turns out he was also busy and told me (tonight I inter) ahh I can not wait until tonight, finally my oldest daughter came home from school, and we went to the doctor, while my little girl she is tutoring so it's time for me to go check all I feel my health is getting worse.The doctor just gave me a kind of pills, pain relievers, and he said I should wait for his test results to three working days.Friday, I received the results of blood tests and everything, and the result was very surprising, I suffer from excess white blood diseases which can cause blood cancer,Friday, I received the results of blood tests and everything, and the result was very surprising,(leukemia), level one, which can still be treated by bone marrow transfusion,ahhh I still do not believe the results of that test, I tried to ignore it, and I continue to consume drugs that doctors give, but I'm getting weaker body condition, although I try to stay I do not want to seem ill woman,finally on Monday I went to another doctor, the hospital is well-known enough, but the result was the same,Physical examination: The doctor checks for swollen lymph nodes, spleen, or liver.
Blood tests: The lab does a complete blood count to check the number of white blood cells, red blood cells, and platelets. Leukemia causes white blood cell count is very high. Also often found low levels of platelets and hemoglobin in red blood cells.

I still have to do some more checking,Biopsy: A biopsy is the only sure way to know whether leukemia cells in your bone marrow. This requires a local anesthetic to help reduce pain. The doctor will take some bone marrow from the hipbone or another large bone. There are two common ways:

 Shit ,,,, I do not believe and I do not want to do it, let all this happen because I know all there is the way, I do not want to stress because of my illness, I do not want my two daughters displaced from the disease, and I do not want to bone marrow transfusion, I just want to see how hard I fight this disease, and I'll still keep smiling.Jasmine,,,,,, keep smiling,,

and embrace your enemies with love,,,although I do not believe in religion, but I believe God, that he would not let me die without seeing my children grown, but it now that I feel, teeth, mouth, nose bleed, my teeth ache, but like i said dohhh, let see , until when I persisted, because of this disease, for treatment instead of a little money, my insurance is not necessarily cover everything, and its crazy I had to go to singapore, ahhh,breaveeeeeeeeeeeeee