Tired minds

                                               "Tired minds"
""What has the Lord has entrusted to me, I should be thankful for and I watch, other than I enjoyed, including my mind, I'm responsible nurture"
     "Human beings are thinkers, this is different from the other creatures, human beings have reason and logic, but every human being should be able to keep his mind well, keeping the mind by which I mean is, rest your mind__I wish to inform a very important thing, when the mind is too tired, working morning, noon, night, makes people angry, because we humans experience the two modes, namely mode of thinking and mode of feeling, when you're thinking, it means not to feel, when 'at  feeling ya mean not think,,,
 Then we certainly remember when we're feeling tired are usually irritable or touchy,

because it again do not want to think, after tired of thinking, then people will feel, therefore if someone we saw being tired do was try to reprimand him, in the end we need to rest our minds, if this happens to us, we just need a break , take time off for a while, when the mind is tired, we played a feeling, this is a condition that is most susceptible to new emotional wounds_____

So the main factor that made us fall, is not the size of the problem, but depend on when we face the problem that, if we're thinking, problem going for anything would not be too hard to deal with, but when I'm not thinking, being badmood, problems small will feel great, being bitten by a mosquito can cause anger,lol__

                              "Feeling tired"

 "A sense that I felt was proof that I was the most beautiful of God's creatures, as they may feel is a gift, then I wear as much as you"_______

Have you ever heard of feeling tired, I've been, and probably in other words, "my heart is tired" !! yes this is me, people who often wear feeling will usually be easy to feel tired and will feel very tired,, I describe here does not mean we should not take the feelings,When we often use sentimentality,often listening to people vent, "why why so, be sure that your question, it is not permissible, however when most of the old-time feeling we'll get burned, for example we listen to the vent, and we do not Science knows detox inhabitants, it happens, all the rants that will litter in our souls, like we have a trash can, you tormented him fresh!!

  I used it often feels like it, even when my circumstances in difficult circumstances though, they came as friends with different problems and in the end I being their trash cans, even be called a place where they ask for help in every way, I used feel angry, and always think about whether I'm too good or stupid, because when I'm short, there are still many people who come up with a variety of issues ranging from material problems til personal problems,

But as I understand the science of detox soul, I understand and am grateful, because I'm sure God knows better I was given more power than them, When I started to feel tired, do not forget I smile and thank God, because I was given more power to date this, and I do not humble myself again by piece rupiah___________Yeah even though life is not better than them, but instead I could try with hands, feet and mind healthy, clearer felt I began to pursue the return of meditation and it makes my heart calm in all exams in God, even more grateful to what we have now than to think about what we do not have, yeah even though until now I still do not have a job,But I have one belief, God dropped me, that I could dig my identity and something very valuable than the years that had I passed,,,

We may have a scenario like this, like that in our lives, but many have become our plans are not in accordance with God's plan, I always believe in, whatever that happens to us is the result of our own actions, so the ignorance that failure we face blame others, and remember one thing, it's most convenient saw others__________ see ya later for now

Recovery soul part 5

                    "No money i not feel i poor"
This afternoon I went  out with my daughter, was thinking for going buy some food for our diner, and was thinking for make her happy at weekend,because since her dad pass away,, Almost I never bring her anymore going out for just hang out, Just because i have no money extra like before,we rode the bike I borrowed from a neighbor, because our motors in use to go to work my oldest daughter,
     With little hope I still have a little stash of money in my savings, just for buy somthing what would my little girl, but was really surprised and I felt a little sad, because it turns out my savings I could not take, even if it is only a minimum number__, ha ha,ha I was laugh with my girls and she said "Mom I don't want go inside the market if u have no money in ATM,, because I don't want to buy anything,,, But I know her well,, she could not say nothing if she want anything and she know I at hard time,,,
    God__________ All  I feel like shouting, God thank you with all of this, it turns out I still have a very valuable asset than money, She is a very pretty daughter who is always there beside me,
back again to the story, after my husband's death, He did not leave any for us, even for our children too, all of the assets ranging from homes, factories and businesses he's all taken over by his family, so for the sake of the survival of our lives, I mortgaged off all jewelry, I used to save and to think for the future as my daughter has been stepped up and I wanted to give it to them, but now it all gone,,
   But, this way, come back I learned a new one that I could talk to my daughter "Darling, we are not poor  because we do not have money" you see there are still many people who might be at this time they had no home and no money to just eat today, and you see today we still get through with us still able to eat enough, sleep in a soft bed, so we still have to be thankful and u still stay in good school, And until now i still can pay you school,Anyway until now i still not find any job,but i will never give up,because I know there,God plans more better than our scenario for our life,
      While I was hitching a ride on a motorcycle, while I was with my girls, "Now Mom wanna asking you, trying thinking if life were really have no problems, everything is well, what is there in the shadows you? "She said of course tasty and without the burden of a very happy, yes it's natural response when people are asked to imagine life without problems, but it actually happened we do not learn anything, without kink and no maturity, no pride in anything in life because we never felt able to overcome,,
       This article is certainly not at all to encourage you to making problem as much as possible, please study the following explanation,, and i was tell my daughter listen Mom,____
   "There are two types of problems"
1),,The problem that had to happen, this is a problem that is outlined to happen, we would not be able to avoid it, no matter how great we are, the problem has been determined in the "blueprint" of life as should happen, like what has happened in the life of me, left alone husband without possessed savings, with I must persist in the environment are quite expensive and girls should still I maintain a private school, which is not an iota of relief to pay a monthly fee, and we as a widow there is no allowance for single parent in this country, including, from the family of my late husband, but I need to explain here, I write this clearly and frankly not to attract anyone sympathy,,
2),,Problems that occur because of made-up itself, these types of problems in the two____
  _Problems that occur because we perform actions or decisions that are less precise, for example, using the money improperly, When the impact is experiencing financial difficulties, who is to blame?

Like life used to be, which can be quite and have never experienced the slightest financial shortage, and I myself often spend money unwisely, unnatural, memebeli something insignificant, and often we only buy goods for a new model and we do not wear it at all, almost every day of the week, we spent time hanging out at the mall, eating out, Oh if I remember back in those days and nine compared to the present,

But here I started to wake up, I once never thought that my life would change 180 degrees, From the start I was a waste of money if we overdo it, and now to buy food and I need to find yourself,,,, but God is fair first I had money in his wallet and 5 million compared to now I have 50 thousand rupiah, I feel rich with money of 50 thousand, than I have money of 5 million, would you ask why? It is clear the value of money so far between 5 million and 50 thousand rupiah, ok here I explain a little bit, used to be when I have money of 5 million whatever I could buy but that could be paid with the money, but I can not buy anything that can not be paid with money____

_Such is the case of her husband, changed the time of his presence with a sum of money which he thought without him, we would be happy to be enough money for us to spend shopping and sightseeing, so happiness is we can not buy from a pile of money he gave, so any can you buy with that money we can not call a treasure, okay why do I still feel rich with money of 50 thousand rupiah, but with that much money what can we buy let alone an age now, but I could have bought a smile my girls is happy and she could thank our current circumstances with a smile full of God,, I bow down to you,, thank you still made me realize, and you do not let me neglect,,And we can still be grateful, I was awakened when the time is not too late, I was given a chance to come back and believe that God exists, my Psalter, God give me strength, give people who care about the awareness that not everything can be bought with money, as the two men who had been present in my life, they think money, possessions that everything in life is, in fact refer to my late husband, when she was riding a success, God said, "Enough of your life ends up here" even he has not had enjoy the fruits of his toil, which she proud-proud of, and see in the end who enjoy the fruits of his labors,, others, even I as a wife I'm not going to enjoy his riches, but let all already set God,, and like I tell you about the "Mr. Right" he was equally ambition,, so that whatever he would do for his money, even if it hurt others (forgive their forgetfulness of God.

__An additional problem that occurs because we incorrectly take a position on issues that had to happen (the first problem) Suppose someone has a problem in the company or a job, a problem that had to happen to make up his maturity, this is exactly what happens to "Mr. Right" but he did not realize to avoid a run on the thought could solve the problem, although it is the same with the maturation process so that he could be more successful, but when he did not respond and perceive this problem in a positive way, what happened was a big disappointment and stress__This problem was brought to his house, he came home with an unhappy, finally pass on new problems, family problems to feel it,

Appearing again another problem, body aches, because of pikirna negative it certainly produces the body is not healthy, because blood flow to the brain sekakan clogged with their minds stress that, by failing to master the problem of the mind at the level of the soul, of here it is highly visible, appearing two additional masalh, due to lack of proper addressing, the first issue that had to happen

Recovery soul part 4

                                                                  "MR.Right"

              "Sadness and pain made me fell down but it was a chance I had to bow"

Honestly now I'm still in a state of hesitation, my soul was tired with all the story of my life journey, which sometimes I do not understand, what I want??

Feeling unappreciated, abandoned, neglected, makes me despair, I used to blame fate, blame God, but now I realize that God has never left me, but I always leave him___

    I should have realized, that "Mr right" is a person who is present to remind that I must not fall into the same hole,

             "I felt ashamed of myself"

Who is the person most responsible for myself?? of course myself, Beginning a sentence "if today I'm no better than yesterday, I was ashamed of myself" and I do not repeat the same mistake,

I wrote the story of my life, just want to just vomit a little remorse and at the same time, ease the burden during this time as prop, and I want to share with anyone, about how we control the feelings when we fall and hurt caused by our own,,,,That pain, loss, ignored it all is our process to reach maturity, and if we reject the process, like his thing happened to me, from the story of my marriage first, I tried to survive until finally the Hand of God coming down and need you know at the time, I still do not believe in a religion, faith, for me then it was nonsense___But when I began to believe that the existence of God and in the end, when I feel helpless, with all the life that is false, then honestly, when I was depressed, where I run, run to drinking the real feeling of happiness that is false, while I seemed to find the existence of God is where, and with the miracle that whoever will not believe, footsteps I took me to a mosque in the remote town,..

    And there I fell to the ground, when I hear the call to prayer, i felt hurt my heart, whether voice -sound caller God I've been looking for,,I put my entire soul and my body only to God, and in the end I became a Muslim, now I believe up until now, may Allah keep my faith, do not falter again with world affairs misleading,,And when I started to get up and come back with a decision, I will leave my husband, I take him in my prayer  "God if I'm not good with not separate us without hurting anyone, because I love him" but do not exaggerate the feeling of love is beyond me love you Allah__________

     Right after I had my return from a search my Lord, I am back and right on 6th August 2015, exactly a week after the Eid, God granted my Prayer, He took my husband, without hurting anyone, "the pain and the pain is so I enjoy" although I am aware lost my husband, I do not know what will happen next with my little family,

we are left with no possessions, let alone saving money, as long as he's alive almost all of its assets on behalf of a  family to him, but I had faith that God would not leave me again and I will not leave him, and it's all part of the process of maturation me, then I feel worse, but with my faith, I could still survive to this day and I'm tough,, I rise from adversity,,,,Nothing that I blame with all these events, including the story of my new "Mr right" What I realize it for some people, possessions, money, more valuable than a pure love, It turned out that Love can be purchased with a pile of paper called "Money" when money is already talk all can be purchased including self-esteem and love, but it's all just a fake, I'm here already experiencing, neglect, humiliation, wasted just because I love humans greedy that they think money can bring them to a point where happiness can be paid,,,

       God forgive me, and forgive those, who already deify money for the sake of self-esteem, honest who make ourselves valuable in life is a matter of maturity, mature person has enough attitude to face all the problems with good, responsible to myself intend to transformation better, How do I feel when I talk with the person who is very mature? I feel proud of myself, because I am more able to take very every problem of life with a smile___ I'm talking to myself "I am a strong man, firm in intention to become a private firm! Now I feel very strong vibrations  to be a very strong hold on to the almighty God powerful_____I forgive those who accidentally hurt me, but I am grateful also to them "my late husband and Mr right" because if it were not for those already on borrowed God's process of maturation me maybe this time I was still sunk in the emptiness of life that seemed meaningless___

       Rejection, failure, loss, even emptiness liver is also a process of self-recovery, writing about the restoration of the soul is that now you are reading is the pen of a woman, a man who has gone through all the processes it, indeed very ill, but produce scantlings life__The point is that if we want to mature, we must be willing in the process, I learned from obstinacy and rejection can be grateful reception when he comes, the one who rejects me only "borrowed" by this life to my form,,,

     Of failure, I learned that nothing is easy, from the failures as well, I learned a lot of science that can not be me from school, From losing I learned not to be so loved and focus on what we have, You do not want too tightly grasping all things that only God entrusted to us, lest when we lose something as if it was more important than yourself, so as we feel sad excessive____

From the void heart, I learned the meaning of surrender to God, no human being may be arrogant, feels no need of God, the emptiness of my heart brought about the need for profound divinity___

       

MR Right

                            "Care about yourself is much greater"
              "When you meditate on this feeling fortunate life, every breath of mine is happiness"
Humans are often not aware of the breath, like a fish in the water is not aware of where he is, Do we realize that our lives had been lucky?   Am I conscious? This question is very important, what I feel when the hurt? Naturally sad, then, what I feel when I know that people are hurting it did have a major problem? there may be a sense of pity,
 Resentment and hatred are the result of ignorance, unawareness in this case is to not know what is really happening to me and in others,,Peaceful heart is an understanding heart, not quick to anger when "putridity" in the life to come, the Self me now is the result of maturation, maturation of a number of pain I have ever experienced, from a number of disappointments is delivered by another person into my life,
  Now began my experience peace, feel the calmness in the sense, that the Lord cast me, it was my chance to bow down and go back to him, there is nothing good all planned glory, In the past I could blame God and the destiny seemed unfair for me, When I turn over all my devotion to my husband and I'm sure one day all will change, but God had other plans, he took the people who really I need where I lean this life, so it turns out I was wrong, now that I realize that we are not able to hang happiness and our lives to humans, because we all must die,, And what I feel,, I just like some LOSS, when he gone, when God take him,,
As a human being I could blame God, depression, fear of the future, afraid of what I would do when He died, often the questions that now I think is not very good, why God is not fair, why did God take him when me and my son they desperately need a figure of a husband and a father,
      I feel all left me, friends, relatives who had felt close in the end they leave me, but one that makes me emerge from the downturn, turned out that God never left me, and this is all like a miracle, I got up for the sake of children  who still need me when they feel the loss of a father, whether they also have to feel the loss figure of a mother, when I feel really fell, fell, as if nothing  longer for me to live, lucky God was reminding me and hit me, the second daughter is an encouragement and a sense I raised upright God with all of this, because I'm sure you must be behind this store better plan for us,,
    Self-awareness that I wake up from the downturn, makes me stronger, I prayed only "God give me more power so I can prostrate"
                               "The emergence of feelings of sadness"
    "I had the authority to control my feelings, because this is so should, for the happiness of my life"\
When I feel sadness, feeling as if someone else had never felt, when feel life is no certainty, I asked myself, actually want me for? Is there someone who can help me? pretends to be happy have often done, but did not succeed, even I was lying to myself,___
 When I feel sad, wants to feel happy in a good way, but as if but everyone as if no one understands, as I feel everyone is busy with their problems respectively, while I was losing control of myself, and feel there are no people who care about me anymore, where I started to find the God that is always there in the soul that I believe in,\
   Honestly at that time I needed someone to help me, wake me up when I fell, but then again it makes me even feel tired___

Finally, I return to the Lord, O Lord strengthen me, I want to come back as happy as when I was a child who innocently makes me think, important I am, for the world and for my children, I really want to know what the meaning of life, When I lost someone which means a lot, now I feel I lost the wings to achieve the future, but in the blink of an eye I started to wake up again, I can not hang my life to humans....

Finally I decided trying to keep happy is better than regretting what has happened, hopefully there is the best way of all the events that happened to me, I am calm, I have an upright, patience, prayer and faith that God gives the trials would not go beyond the boundaries of man himself___

     But of course we are ordinary people who in seeking efforts happiness, sometimes we are wrong to take the decision to be saying, and I got stuck back into mine who used to be filled with glamor, go to nightclubs with friends, who they were not a friend, because there is a friend that will trap us to fall over fall when we are in the process of repair,,but it's all I make as a new journey of my life, being a single mom, I regained consciousness but if when it's too late, but not too late for us to realize all the mistakes before he died we pick,,

             " The experience of falling in love can fix my faith "

I continue my story with an experience, the pain that favors,,maybe when I tell a new story of my life journey, you will pout, mocking me, but here I will honestly tell and this is me make a long experience, old story repeating itself when my husband's death seven months ago__

But I will not blame you, exactly two months ago, when I really feel fall, lonely, life seemed meaningless, when I needed someone, I met someone who seemed to welcome and accept me as I am, come up with a figure very similar with my late husband, from his attitude to treat me, He came as God in order to protect, replacement figure that had been taken from me,,introduction unintentionally make me fall asleep, actually I'm still in the shadow of my late husband in a figure he just call him "Mr right" I began to feel the love, the fear of losing again like before, I began with a variety of ways to maintain the happiness I once this, because I'm sure I'm still not too late, to re-establish a connection,

    of introductions inadvertently continue into the relationship, which is getting serious, but when I started to fall asleep with feel it, though again remember right I love stories I had in the past with the deceased, who was very beautiful, suddenly the Lord back to wake me, I realize that "Mr right" single but not avalible, means that he is not alone, that before I was present in his life, there was already someone who filled his life and probably very meaningful for him, I fell back with a hole the same as a few years ago, until I think about how stupid I am, how could I get stuck again after I try to be aware and to rise from the loss, arises a sense of regret that is not measurable and confusion, because when I started to feel the presence God is in my faith, I now faltering again, I'm sick again, but I feel now the pain is very delicious, While I hold this chest, thank God you're back made me realize,

       But at the same time, I still feel curious, the feeling of a normal human being who wants to be loved, that I should be aware of a loss, but the name I'm an ordinary human consciousness which sometimes arrive late,, when I most feel helpless, but now with more thought positive, nothing I blame in this case, I began to realize, that God brought us together is not without reason, he comes in when I start to rise from adversity, and as if repeating old story that could make me fall, but how foolish of her to me, because I actually fall asleep with the same situation as 14 years ago that made my life destroyed to date, And Mr. Right comes as the return of my late husband with a different figure___

    I ll continue writing about Mr Right,, was open my mind and how to life 

Recovery soul part 3

                                             "I want"
    " Considered themselves more important than the problem, it keeps us could appreciate themselves"

Most powerful forces in life is feeling loved, If you are now in a position not excited or hollow, lest because you're forgotten, Forgetting that you are highly desired by this life, you are very loved by the Lord, Tal-one human being was created with "fad "without a lofty goal, Say !! "I was there because I IMPORTANT! I wanted by this life, loved by God with a very deep___

     A present an opportunity for yourself____

Sometimes we are busy to make others happy, but often neglect themselves happiness, compassion, self-important, Say "I'm very fond of myself,"And often we are too blame yourself, without you realize that all the problems, failures or errors that occurred is allowed to happen, give ourselves a chance to pause and reflect on this,,Give a chance to ourselves, to forgive, given the opportunity, quiet and happy, give the opportunity to us, care about yourself, dedicate a small chance for us today, when we feel like a failure and fear to try, which is happening is you inhibit opportunity yourself,,,

Do not speak of fear at successful people, they were used on it, now they understand that all the feeling of helplessness that turned out to be mastered, as proof of your affection to yourself,,
   Allow yourself to forgive, given the chance, calm and happy, give yourself a chance, dear yourself, offer little opportunity for yourself today, When you feel like a failure and scared to try is happening is you inhibit the opportunity yourself , Do not talk the fear of the successful people they were used on it, now they understand that the feeling of helplessness that turned out to be mastered, as proof of affection for yourself, please give yourself a chance to try, When you feel guilty up sad protracted means you do not provide the opportunity for God to shape you through it, and for you did not give it to yourself to learn something valuable from it___