Monday with nothing ,

Sometime I want you to see my cuts,
To feel my pain, and to see what  you've done to me,,
Then,I realize that you probably won't care!!

 I can't explain how painful it is to wait for something that never come,
I can't explain how painful when love someone that never know how to love.

Monday with feel sadness,

Good day, Monday was this morning with the end of last week, and we enter the third week in the new year, as always we hope the new year with new hope, last night I slept pretty good unlike last night, even if I did not dream last night , but I sleep with a happy feeling, as from Sunday afternoon until midnight, I spend time with my beloved, even in togetherness last night there was little tension, due to a misunderstanding, but we can overcome all of them before I sleep, so my hopes in the morning I open my eyes and smiled, whispered to myself, (my love good morning and good evening for you, this morning increasing my love, how I love you, Will u have no idea), was, as usual every morning, I prepare my child inter to school, but I do not forget to go to facebook just to update and say hello to all my friends, and I want to preach that I'm not alone anymore and I have someone who is very meaningful in my life.This morning I feel like the luckiest woman in the world, because I had a lover who loves me what it is I. I go to facebook and I got  inbox  from him,he saying is time for bed for him, and I saw him put a link in walls, mmm I really like reading him blog, but as soon as I read it I was very surprised, it turns out the issues we discussed last night and ended with a kiss good night,, it turns out he still keep in he heart, and makes me more and more difficult to understand what is actually he wanted from our relationship, I stop my breath for a while when I read the contents of the blog that he wrote, I finally understand, and I try to understand with a very sick heart I try to smile, and I said to myself, if this would end so quickly and briefly a love story built on the basis of trust,??My lover is the last thing I want to say, I love you not because of your physical, I love you not because of money you have, I love you because I'm sure you can love me and take care of me, I want you to the last man in my life, I want spend my golden years back in your arms, I want to lean on your chest when I feel sad, I want to walk hand in hand when we are old, but with a little mistake that I did not intentionally, it makes me lose all of the dream, the loss of trust from you, lose your love,
My lover, I do not want to see the camp do not feel comfortable in our relationship, I do not want to see you hurt because of me, When with my away will make you happy, I'll leave you, by bringing all the pain, and I learned to accept all this, but I will always wait until you feel really loved me and I was the last woman in your life, I am a woman choice, if one day you change your mind, I'm still the same old woman who loves you no matter who you are, remember I was even a little in your heart ,I went with grief again, I passed my day today again with a fake smile, I give my love because I wish I could happy you, but this was not enough to prove, so HOW I Love you, I take you with me in every sigh of my breath, I your name mentioned in every prayer, may you in healty and happiness, I'm grateful you've come to fill my life that had seemed deserted, but you came up with all the happiness and new hopes, My lover I hope you find a woman you have been looking for, I always thought it was me, I was wrong, hopefully she can love you like I love you, may you be happy forever, I love you and it will never change till i died,, I love you (Adrian Klirk),,and it never change,