Heart disease part 11

That man, when they hit a problem, they are not trying to find a solution, but they are busy looking for other people's mistakes,and blame others for the destruction of their lives..And at that moment, I became very angry, because I could not accept what she is accused, who I've always tried to advise her, because I feel we are very close, and not materially adverse to each other,
 I said, and swore she faces, I give you two weeks to prove all of your oath to me and my family,and some of our friends come to witness the oath I did back then,I talked to her, And in two weeks time we will prove that you and God as witnesses, as well as our friends, who saw what happened today, who would have destroyed, I and I children, or you...any oath on that day I swallow, because I do not feel guilty why should I fear,that time he also spoke okay let's see and witnessed,,since that day, I never met her again, even I block her phone,

Believe it or not, I swear it's true that we are talking about does happen, slowly but surely, I hear about her, from our friends that we used to get together, She said, since She husband knew that she frequently gambled and last there is someone come to house to collect the debt in an amount not less,her husband drove, and took all the assets, money, home, car and kicked her back to streets.And I, when it's in two weeks, a business that I run,prices rose dramatically to 200%, I get lucky, in that moment I still do not have a house I just rented house I made ​​the most of the office and residence,within two weeks, I bought two houses at once, still in my residential area, because I school children there,yeah not a big house, but enough for our stay and the other three I made ​​the office where I do business, just a house with 3 bedrooms, but at that moment, I was very lucky,and some of her money jar for my daughter I went to college,because I still do not need a private car, to our streets, I still have the motor bike, I just bought a motor bike again for my daughter going to college,I felt better life,but what I heard after he was kicked by her husband, she returned the unfortunate, young sister  who was always proud of her, was pregnant out of wedlock while she was still in school,And one day I received a phone call, and I was her friend who was scolding me, she apologized and cried,She said sorry for blaming me, and swear She was talking about it really happened, and consuming itself,I just said (forget about it all and we start a new life I forgive you but for me enough to know what your friends like this,and since then, I never heard from her again.and I'm pretty happy with the life I lead with my two daughters,until I went online and know the world, I think I'd better make friends with people who I know online, than I better man with real people who are not mentally ill.Ahhh but the online world also had to make a real life I'm in trouble, because it introduces a friend who I told you about in the last blog,And it turns out why she can blame me for no reason, and angry hate me, because (liver disease) that had she kept neatly poorer she does not stand to see I was younger and I have the body shape, than her.but it does not matter now, first when her husband was still living with her, because our house is close enough so that I do every activity of her husband must have seen me,and her husband talk this way (it looks more sexy jasmine just like a princess flower) I heard it from her, and I'm not just saying that only the views ahhh naughty guy,because I knew her husband was a jerk,plus again I introduce her to a good man that she may have never heard the beautiful words praise, which she never received from her husband,and he knew that before I introduce him as the man, the man first knew me, even though we are not lovers but so far our relationship is very good, and he often helped me, but maybe because of all the stories that I tell her, it is make her jealous, which makes her hate me without reason, I know because she was afraid of losing him,but this does not make sense, when we see how good attitude and for her behavior in the environment we, all people  said  this are not logical,but some are talking to me, if someone falls in love, it never again think logical.this she expects to a better live,I tried to understand, and understand, although I have never felt, when I fell in love, I lost my common sense.but let them run with each of his mind, yet it was not me that loss, but one day they will feel the fruits of liver disease,I just live life day to day and try to do better, positive thinking, smile to those who hate you, but forgive but never forget, ehehe enough for me to have a real friend who thought I just add to the burden,I'd better make friends, joking with friends online that they never care about what our status in the real world,if they try to lie, I know that but I do not care, because all I know, when we lie and deceive others, we must own that will incur a loss,,either keep it and take note of both the last time you lied to others,thank you all of it, today I'm still not feeling better, I still feel sick grrrr, not feeling well, maybe the old dohh, yeyeye, GOD BLESS YOU ALL MY LOVELY FRIEND,embraced in the arms of loving your enemies!!!!!!!! see ya in my next story hope not make you bored reading hehehe, thnks for you time read my this blog, but this reall i feeling in my real life

Heart disease

Incurable liver disease in the human heart can not keep your heart and feelings of others.
 And many people are good at hiding, among other diseases, (jealous of the success of others, jealous with all the advantages of others, jealousy, hate when you see other people happy, glad to see others suffer, I feel best among all people , lying to myself,) I'm sure everyone must have felt all of the disease, because we are only human, who will make mistakes, but we're not the devil who is always wrong, and not the angel that is always true,)it's just part of the human heart disease that I write here, and I've even often feel that, but I'm grateful, I was quickly overcome by, saw the good side of all the evil that others do to me, because many have the experience and the strange events that I feel effects of liver disease.and i watch it,I once had a friend, she's a woman who became mistress, a European man, she was quite luxurious life than I did back then, when she had bought a luxury car, while I was riding the motor bike,but even so we are very good friends, but I guess I never hurt her, though she had far more money than me,She just one mistake, she most liked to gamble, but I do not really pay attention to, yahh sometimes I often talk to her that it's not a good gamble, you have to think about your future, because we will not always pretty, what else she just a mistress.and is a good chance will not come twice in our lives, we should take advantage before it's already ruined, and you are kicked by a boyfriend,and one day, he came to my house to accompany him in jakarta gamble, a gamble where the big party, not just anyone can enter without bringing enough money, okey I went with him, and tried my luck, I join gambling game, but when it goddess of fortune did not side with us.I just simply lost several hundred thousand indonesia.and money I'm getting bored because I was not so unusual, but it turns out he's my friend lost a total of nearly 5 million rupiah, in 3 hours,I say, hey stop this game, you will never win, because we play with the real players are only too well, and they are quite a lot of money, but apparently he was still hooked, and eventually she borrowed money to bangker, as many as 5 million,and she again lost, after she felt that she was still playing with the cars we drive pledge that moment, I told you insane,but this time she cheating, but I'm afraid, and I finally returned home alone, I leave her there, because she would not stop,since then I have not seen her for several days because I was busy with business that I live, but on my one day she call me,She scolded me, hate me, and curse my children will become prostitutes if they were just silent when.she great to hear what she was talking about I really do not understand, after she finished talking, then I ask, exactly what was wrong between me with you so you hate me and scold the child I a child innocent?I just thought, what if she was angry because I came home first, and leave her, because I still have small children that I could not stay too long, although it was still there babysister,It was not the case that made him mad, money-lenders, bankers whose money she had borrowed to gamble at the time, came looking for her home and when her husband was at home, and she thought the man moneylenders ask it from my, home address and I provide information, where she lived,and she thought I went to join her life with , Lombard told them to come home to collect the debt that she borrowed when she husband at home,And unfortunately she thinks I go to eat and I know at the bank that he borrowed the money,what the hell.haha I just smiled, and I said, I know where you are also gambling that you ask  me to come join you,how i know them people who u borrow money,I'm not mad at her when she was blame  me for something i not know,when she came to see me and berate me in front of many people , but  that makes me mad, when she took the name of my children, that she said, (I swear you girls to be prostitutes poor).and I appoint her face, and talk (not at all times once you take away the names of my children in our problem, and  she still did not have children, but I know she has a younger sister who was always proud of her,continued~~~~~ >

Quickly the time passed

Quickly the time passed,, ahhhh the weekend is now in front of the eye, and almost three months ended also in 2012, but my life is running very slow, the time can not compromise,, 

  I'm still here with all the dreams that I still can not reach, I only have my two daughters target could be a strong woman, and not a weak woman, ahhh I wish I could turn back the clock,I would be able to reach all my dreams, without a shadow of the past are not easily I forget, I wish I could turn back the clock, I might not like it, just stuck being a mother plus a father for my two daughters, ahhh it's only a shade more to me not grateful for what I can today,And indeed human beings will never be satisfied with what they got when it,.they will continue to feel less, what more when they see the success of others,This is a human, they would be smart to blame others when they are affected, see the mistakes of others more easily than to see his own errors,,as the saying goes (. grass will look greener than the grass itself)to see the mistakes of others (ants across the ocean can be seen, but the invisible elephant in front of the eye),,it's normal, for people with abnormal, selfish, that they felt I might the best one,. best to cover the decay that saved them, but sometimes without realizing they showed who they were and I'm sure it would,ahhh I'm tired of taking care of other people hehehe I let them think with their own thoughts,,,I still can not do either, although I'm always trying to improve themselves, trying to always be honest, even if they do not believe it, but I do not care,,I feel the fruit of an honesty, I can still live quietly until now, I can still earn the trust of many friends, yeah i mean not much i have real friends,but for me even though we met a friend online, I think they are better than the real future life friends,, I honestly have never succeeded in friendship.for example, as I have a friend who I knew 5 years, it's not a short time, but lost the blink of an eye with a very silly reason, that reminds me of someone once when I went on holiday to Thailand,I was praying in a temple, and an old man approached, she saw my face very deep, I'm confused why this old man, which I knew he was one of his monks, on the ground, with a sense of wonder, I wonder why you see me I like someone you know, haha this story will probably make you laugh, but it really happened to me, He spoke as I predicted fate, our future life that is identical, chines our beliefs are born because of reincarnation, and we believe that,He told me that I was born as a goddess of the sky.and he tell me i have mark in left my breast and hell yes i have them,,but how he know about this, ,,I was given all the advantages, but back then I was dead, and I still plead with God to live like human beings, and finally God gives me life like an ordinary human being but in any event,terms that I can not change fate, that I was born not bring a mate, like most human beings are born with them to bring their mates as the saying goes, man is a woman's rib, but I do not have the ribs,the saying goes, ehehe, then he said I would not be possessed real friends, many men who loved me, but I still can not have it for myself, if anything it will go away slowly, if I have children, they will leave me with slowly, and I will remain alone..ahhh I was never believed all that, but slowly I began to believe that fate predictions, because I experienced it, from the start, I do not know who my real parents,until now it's like a mystery, even the actual date of birth I did not know for sure, slowly I began to feel what the monks were talking about, but I want to see what will happen later okay, hehe it's just a prediction, I'll dial again, now just got home tired enough yoga,,, GOD bless you all

a fun day of week in a pain

Finally ended this week as well, although quite heavy, with the condition my body is still not completely healthy, but this Sunday was a time when I took my little daughter, just to the streets and have lunch at the usual place we always spent time together,,not an expensive place, but we are still grateful, because we can still enjoy it a vital, well there is a bit of jealousy, when you see them, a complete family, walking, eating together, husbands, wives and their children, ahhh I try not think of it all, which I planted in my heart, the liver is also my children, not necessarily what we see better than us, they are happier than we,

 and we really enjoyed the day this week, with the movie it was very great movie, I ride my bike with a small daughter, another daughter and her other bike ride, Oh thank god I'm so happy to see them smile, my prayer today, my age is long, let me see them smiling again, a smile that could make the world happy, I do not care if I stay alone like this is important I still have their two daughters, and whatever will I do for them..I prayer tonight, god I know you exist, I know I'm not your good people, but give me time to see and guide the girls become women, women who are strong, cruel middle life, when it is, you take my life I will smile , my Lord, give me greatness of heart to forgive people who hurt and betrayed me, give them a consciousness, before it's too late..like me, who at this time, I could just live life to the loneliness, the tears are already dry, and not all tears are useless, because no one cares, longing in the heart, but who I miss, I do not understand, because for me all that I experienced was just a dream, that one day I'll wake up, and missing all these wonderful dreams,

 only time will tell it all, in the solitude of a quiet corner of the night, I just still have some hope, tomorrow morning it will be no new stories, my condition improved slightly after consuming drugs uhgg I was bored, but I do transfalasy to the spinal cord I think it is too early, because I still felt fine,,,, sometime, hehe, okey hope awesome weekend all and starting in the new week, God bless you all,