A week of confusion

Hello all, finally we arrive again at the end of this week, thank god we can still arrange a meeting even though the internet, but this week, from the initial 2 weeks ago, I felt a little confused, and in the end I was confused, with all mysteries of life that I live for this, with all the reality and imagine, the illusion of life is true life is a mystery, but the real question what if I also included in the full mystery of life is also a miracle, exactly 4 days ago I got an email from someone who I know the new 5 months ago, he left no small amount of money into my bank account, the amount of lot money, the Lord which made ​​me wonder why he entrusted his money to me, if this all is not well, I hope he will soon take I got confused when I went to the bank to cash checks in my account, it turns out the bank director called me into his private office, and I talk about that on Monday the first week of February had send from abroad with no small amount of money, in the end I got a call, and yes it from him, he told me, he entrusted the money to be safe if there is my hand,yes so far it's money in my hand, he told end of June he will come to me to take the money, but he also had told me the right to use the money for all my needs,, mmmmmmm  but what i can  to do, I can not talk this to anyone that I do not believe, so I just waited till June, and see wonders what else will I receive, I hope it all ends up with the good, because I do not have the slightest intention to do evil, what else is not right to put my money I never wanted to accept the money without me to sweat, and I do not want to feed my children stolen money, hehehe even I am poor I'll still try to be honest,because the only truth I know that makes me live in safety to date,!!!!I hope it all ends with benevolence, and for sure I will follow where fate brought me!!
          have awesome weekend all,, and try to be honest by u self, and keep what u had promise not with any body,but promise for you self !!! Jasmine

morning with all bad think,bad feel

 confusion, fear, anxiety I have not been written, so woke up this morning, I felt something unusual, I do not know, confused, my eyes, disappointed in themselves no end, sadly, ahhhhh I think there is something that struck me most deeply, the I do not understand, many people say I'm pretty smart, pretty, I can get along with everyone, and I never cared who they were, while they were being nice to me i don't fucking care who you are of them, I do not care how much of their wealth, if they being stupid and not good, I keep them at the bottom my feet.ahhh I finally understand why I woke up this morning with all the strange feelings, sadness, hate, myself, in the name of love, a man who I felt they were just using me , as an object, and they never know, I have this love, my body was shaking, I held back so I will not spill all of my emotions, oh god what happened, and what will happen, this morning, so today I feel hate myself , why can not I say no, why I was powerless, its all like a bad dream that will never end, god gave me the way, send me an angel that could go as far as possible, sometimes I feel like ending my life, I'm jasmine that they I see a strong, but actually I'm just a stupid woman, who is helpless.it's all a sacrifice, not useful, I still just do not waste care as a human being, as a woman worthy of love,you know something what i want do now, and what i want,,,, IF i have alot money what i want dooo,,,, I WANT BUY called MAN<LOVE,like they doit,,,oh GOD stop this shit,, i tiredddddddddddddd,no let me i kill myself, because of this shit,I'm tired of God, to always pretend, I'm tired of being a good person while they can not appreciate kindness, they even used me with all the bulshit, love for me was just a piece of deceit, which can only benefit from each others, to hurt when it was bored,,,,Again!!!!!!!!  SO plase stop u fool me about love,if u not know what it meaning,!! plsssssss i hate it word named LOVE,