in the solitude of the night ...
I was glued to lament the fate of love which ran aground q
I was pensive ...
why all this should go like the wind ...
moon night to witness ..
grains are so many tears ...
cheeks wet ,no I understand ...
why all this had to happen ..
he is my dear
I love with all my heart
but why he left me
for another woman ...
I sometimes want to shout amain
so he knows how I'm hurting hearts he
loves me and her ..
Greet & beautiful ... said words carried away makes the heart melt ...
the description says always believe ... I suspect not every story ...
Your love fills my days ... my time in every shadow is always there ...
I'm sure you're right up for me ...
Complete my shortcomings with my strengths ... your black card cover me as I could ...
in order not to insult you ... to which no reply humble you ...
How my heart was struck by lightning ... when I see the truth ... love theater ...
I hurt too disappointed with the trust which was stained with a perfect heart ... only without the sense to understand ...
An act of love ... should know that I think would care ... an act of love ... why so bear ...
sincere heart hurt now without meaning ...
An act of love ... if you contemplate the heart is positioned on this ...
An act of love ... should be able to choose a game and anyone who played it right ... which is not played in a game full of honesty in the trust.~~~~
Saturday, March 3, 2012
memory in the past
When I was seen you for the first time
I believe that…
I am able to be part in your life
Your so kindness has made my heart trembling
Every time I look at you
All your sweet words
Made me touched to hear them more and more
I was helpless to restrain my feeling that time
If two human being promise each other in sign
Now, I almost do not believe
That beautiful memory
My Love story with you it’s only a past time
But, I don’t care
I will always reminisce about you in my heart
You mean so much to me
Always support me in anything I do
Even by the time saying good bye
You still pas out your farewell hands
I do not believe indeed
Remembering that time
I feel that I would like to cry
I feel that i would like shout
Let all people know about my feeling
But, my inner voice does allow to
If I’m only able to see you
I am quite happy enough
You still keep my memory in your heart
And know…
I’ve missed you
There’s only one that I’d to say.
The past isn't to be forgotten, The love is around you, the memory is album that you've to save.
I believe that…
I am able to be part in your life
Your so kindness has made my heart trembling
Every time I look at you
All your sweet words
Made me touched to hear them more and more
I was helpless to restrain my feeling that time
If two human being promise each other in sign
Now, I almost do not believe
That beautiful memory
My Love story with you it’s only a past time
But, I don’t care
I will always reminisce about you in my heart
You mean so much to me
Always support me in anything I do
Even by the time saying good bye
You still pas out your farewell hands
I do not believe indeed
Remembering that time
I feel that I would like to cry
I feel that i would like shout
Let all people know about my feeling
But, my inner voice does allow to
If I’m only able to see you
I am quite happy enough
You still keep my memory in your heart
And know…
I’ve missed you
There’s only one that I’d to say.
The past isn't to be forgotten, The love is around you, the memory is album that you've to save.
The past
The weekend is over, as I spent the day today, very fast passed, and all the same nothing has changed, as if I know what will happen tomorrow, everyone told us no one knows what will happen tomorrow, but for me remains the same, the difference is, once I was able to save a bit of hope though that false, dark, but now that I'm not expecting anything else,
The past will always haunt poor, lives in the future, although many said, we live in the future rather than in the past, but I think the future because we've lived in the past.The past that I live is not for anyone else, I'm not sure who my real parents, my life as if I was full of mysteries that are difficult to solve, I served until adulthood I still can not find what I want, and what is the purpose of my life,Until I got older, I try to achieve a dream that I've been buried, with great difficulty, my biggest dream was destroyed by the hands of foster parents themselves, they do not understand what I wanted, but they showed the wrong way, until finally I walked in the darkness and grabbed the hand that guided the wrong streets,
And so I today, which has been destroyed, destroyed by the hand of a human hand, the promise of love and beauty, loyalty, security of life in the future.And I innocently, sitting still follow where fate brought me, with the hope that one day what they promised it would be real, it was all just entertainment while when they need me as a complement to his imagination, a complement to life, without me knowing my life has been exploited by them from starting their own parents, to a man who I thought was everything, that I thought would protect me from the new life that I knew,Until finally I realized, I was lulled in life turns out is a dream, a dream so beautiful, a promising future life, and I just sat quietly with my folly, believing all the bullshit...And finally it hit me when he had destroyed them all, he cast me as useless junk.This past couple of years back I went through,And it's enough to make me feel dead, thank god you have to wake me, even now I still do not feel anything, but I'll try to stand at the foot of which is limping, the pain is difficult to cure,enough to make me learn that life is more bad. I have taught my two daughters, no parent wants to destroy their children, but my parents have ruined me, until fate led me down the wrong arms man, who haunts the lives of my future.God I would not blame anyone who, God gives us the strength to walk at the foot of the already crippled, the endless waiting, the suffering is not over yet, but I'm sure behind all of this you have kept a secret life for me and my two daughters.Past the turn off all sense of confidence in me to love and loyalty, past which made me quite understand what it means to fake a smile, past which makes me cry every time I open my eyes, past which makes me understand how cruel human beings, past that made me do not want to live for the future,Past that makes me feel sick to breathe.Past that makes me not believe in the future~~~~~ Jasmine
The past will always haunt poor, lives in the future, although many said, we live in the future rather than in the past, but I think the future because we've lived in the past.The past that I live is not for anyone else, I'm not sure who my real parents, my life as if I was full of mysteries that are difficult to solve, I served until adulthood I still can not find what I want, and what is the purpose of my life,Until I got older, I try to achieve a dream that I've been buried, with great difficulty, my biggest dream was destroyed by the hands of foster parents themselves, they do not understand what I wanted, but they showed the wrong way, until finally I walked in the darkness and grabbed the hand that guided the wrong streets,
And so I today, which has been destroyed, destroyed by the hand of a human hand, the promise of love and beauty, loyalty, security of life in the future.And I innocently, sitting still follow where fate brought me, with the hope that one day what they promised it would be real, it was all just entertainment while when they need me as a complement to his imagination, a complement to life, without me knowing my life has been exploited by them from starting their own parents, to a man who I thought was everything, that I thought would protect me from the new life that I knew,Until finally I realized, I was lulled in life turns out is a dream, a dream so beautiful, a promising future life, and I just sat quietly with my folly, believing all the bullshit...And finally it hit me when he had destroyed them all, he cast me as useless junk.This past couple of years back I went through,And it's enough to make me feel dead, thank god you have to wake me, even now I still do not feel anything, but I'll try to stand at the foot of which is limping, the pain is difficult to cure,enough to make me learn that life is more bad. I have taught my two daughters, no parent wants to destroy their children, but my parents have ruined me, until fate led me down the wrong arms man, who haunts the lives of my future.God I would not blame anyone who, God gives us the strength to walk at the foot of the already crippled, the endless waiting, the suffering is not over yet, but I'm sure behind all of this you have kept a secret life for me and my two daughters.Past the turn off all sense of confidence in me to love and loyalty, past which made me quite understand what it means to fake a smile, past which makes me cry every time I open my eyes, past which makes me understand how cruel human beings, past that made me do not want to live for the future,Past that makes me feel sick to breathe.Past that makes me not believe in the future~~~~~ Jasmine
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Sexy men who are
A. Successful.
2. Which generates a lot of money, but leave it up to you.
3. Which is not wrong, but to apologize to you, even if you are wrong.
4. Who can cook.
5. Who love and praise your cooking - whatever it was.
6. Who can not sing, but sing a love song for you.
7. The firm to others, but gentle to you.
8. Valiant in battle, but the whining spoiled in your lap.
9. The eyes wide, his breath caught, super Animashaun and excessive in praising your beauty.
10. Which leads the world and require strict compliance with the rules, but according to the rules.
11. You know he's lying when praise, but he lied to the beautiful, sincere, and loving.
12. Who live only for you.
13. Ruling and preaching to the universe, but still with a baby face and silent when you speak.
14. Who dared to face the enemy as much as possible and disasters, but the very fear makes you cry.
15. The sound of thunder boomed making minder, but smooth and soft when calling your name.
16. Who refused to eat before all the people who eat lead, but follow you around the kitchen when he was hungry.
17. He encouraged people to live independently, but he asked you fed while eating.
18. He knows the direction of travel to Indonesia in the glorious and brilliant, but the confusion if you are not with him.
19. He was a messenger from heaven, but still ask your advice for important decisions for the good of many people.
20. He was sad and blames herself if you be rude to him.
21. When you apologize to him, he smiled and apologized been causing you to behave like that, though actually you know his heart torn by bitter you roughness
22. He lives up to your name as the Empress in his kingdom.
23. He make you beautiful, beautiful jewelry for her.
24. When he was insulted by others, in poverty or in the fall of the degree, he still felt the highest and richest, because he had you.
25. You are the pride of his life.
2. Which generates a lot of money, but leave it up to you.
3. Which is not wrong, but to apologize to you, even if you are wrong.
4. Who can cook.
5. Who love and praise your cooking - whatever it was.
6. Who can not sing, but sing a love song for you.
7. The firm to others, but gentle to you.
8. Valiant in battle, but the whining spoiled in your lap.
9. The eyes wide, his breath caught, super Animashaun and excessive in praising your beauty.
10. Which leads the world and require strict compliance with the rules, but according to the rules.
11. You know he's lying when praise, but he lied to the beautiful, sincere, and loving.
12. Who live only for you.
13. Ruling and preaching to the universe, but still with a baby face and silent when you speak.
14. Who dared to face the enemy as much as possible and disasters, but the very fear makes you cry.
15. The sound of thunder boomed making minder, but smooth and soft when calling your name.
16. Who refused to eat before all the people who eat lead, but follow you around the kitchen when he was hungry.
17. He encouraged people to live independently, but he asked you fed while eating.
18. He knows the direction of travel to Indonesia in the glorious and brilliant, but the confusion if you are not with him.
19. He was a messenger from heaven, but still ask your advice for important decisions for the good of many people.
20. He was sad and blames herself if you be rude to him.
21. When you apologize to him, he smiled and apologized been causing you to behave like that, though actually you know his heart torn by bitter you roughness
22. He lives up to your name as the Empress in his kingdom.
23. He make you beautiful, beautiful jewelry for her.
24. When he was insulted by others, in poverty or in the fall of the degree, he still felt the highest and richest, because he had you.
25. You are the pride of his life.
A very heavy weekend
The rain fall because the sky can't longer handle Heaviness Just like that
The tears falls because the heart can No longer handle the pain!!!
I tried to busy myself by going out to meet with friends, yoga, doing all that can make me forget the past, telling stories, joking, but anyway I still can not forget, how wicked he had used me, tears do not stop, I crying, crying again, though I try to hide, the pain in front of my two daughters, but I can not, it is too sick god,,,,, I felt like screaming,I wanted to sleep and not wake up again, God I know this must be the best way that you give, but I feel very sick, the pain is making me regret not to be born..Lord I ask only one in thee, give fortitude to my two daughters, do not let them feel the pain of this,, hey you are there who have made my life destroyed,,, I just pray, may you be given the awareness that the pain that you gave it enough to make the dead feeling, enough to make me hate what is called LOVE!!!I promised myself, I'm not going to open up to anyone who called him also love, my goal I just want to raise my two daughters and wanted to prove to the world, that I am a woman who was hurt, I was able to bring my two daughters without having to depend on anyone , and you quickly realize that a man named before god punishes you who have made use of a real woman who sacrifices, sacrificing happiness for the sake of his daughters, was the sacrifice, love and affection that I've been given is not enough to make you stay beside me,I know now not to say sorry, but this is a lesson that is very meaningful for me, also for my two daughters, that we should not trust, loving soul to a man,,
The best for me with my two daughter ,i can stand for them,, and just kicked the hell man,are always talking how great, and believe that love is everything,!!!If you do not know what it means to love, never spoke I love you, because I know it was all nonsense, love without sacrifice, it's all bullshit,, in love with a sacrifice I was a jump into the deepest abyss,,
Jasmine Than
The tears falls because the heart can No longer handle the pain!!!
I tried to busy myself by going out to meet with friends, yoga, doing all that can make me forget the past, telling stories, joking, but anyway I still can not forget, how wicked he had used me, tears do not stop, I crying, crying again, though I try to hide, the pain in front of my two daughters, but I can not, it is too sick god,,,,, I felt like screaming,I wanted to sleep and not wake up again, God I know this must be the best way that you give, but I feel very sick, the pain is making me regret not to be born..Lord I ask only one in thee, give fortitude to my two daughters, do not let them feel the pain of this,, hey you are there who have made my life destroyed,,, I just pray, may you be given the awareness that the pain that you gave it enough to make the dead feeling, enough to make me hate what is called LOVE!!!I promised myself, I'm not going to open up to anyone who called him also love, my goal I just want to raise my two daughters and wanted to prove to the world, that I am a woman who was hurt, I was able to bring my two daughters without having to depend on anyone , and you quickly realize that a man named before god punishes you who have made use of a real woman who sacrifices, sacrificing happiness for the sake of his daughters, was the sacrifice, love and affection that I've been given is not enough to make you stay beside me,I know now not to say sorry, but this is a lesson that is very meaningful for me, also for my two daughters, that we should not trust, loving soul to a man,,
The best for me with my two daughter ,i can stand for them,, and just kicked the hell man,are always talking how great, and believe that love is everything,!!!If you do not know what it means to love, never spoke I love you, because I know it was all nonsense, love without sacrifice, it's all bullshit,, in love with a sacrifice I was a jump into the deepest abyss,,
Jasmine Than
A Relationship
A Relationship
Today, 3 March 2012, the third month in the new year, everyone in the new year hoping to get all the goodness, so do I, but I'm experiencing, I do not know what path I take all this into something that good or bad for my future.A relationship that I have lived for many years, it ended just like that, loyalty and love, it is not enough to sustain a relationship,I'm not willing to be willing to give up my husband fell into the arms of another woman, and on 29 February last I received a document that he and I were officially divorced, I honestly feel hurt, I feel used, it just thinks of me as a complement to life,Life has taught me a lot, life is also treating me very bad, although I always try to do good, honest belief, in a relationship turns out that all is not enough.Honestly, I always promised myself, he's only the first and last man in my life, but I'm not the last woman for him, I love him with all my soul, I believe everything he said even though I know it's all a lie, I was smiling as he say (I want to marry again). God where justice, why did you leave me powerless, always get use from of humans who have no conscience,but I believe this might be the best way that you give, it must be painful, but I'm sure there's a brighter tomorrow, but that so my question, if I was able to forge a new relationship with someone new I know, it's always a so my question, and answer, no, I think it is difficult to present this to fall in love,I believe God will not give you anything I can not afford this road.When best way that you give when I have to stand up, I'm sure I'll live to follow the flow of which you have outlined underlined my fate,was very difficult to leave what we live for this, and we tried it with something new, but I have to stand up for my two daughters, and I prefer to be alone for the moment, there is much beloved, forgive me, because for now I still can not be honest with you, I lied to you, and I know this is going to hurt you, but a relationship based on lies will end up with a very painful feeling it will make you not want to wake up again, and before we go any further, today I'll be honest, I still can not leave the memory of my past, who treated me very bad, I was traumatized by the words of love,I was very afraid because I was a fragile woman, I'm not so tough that you can see, I always give a fake smile, and I do not want it to happen again, some day when you are too tired and left me, maybe by then I did not want living longer, so for now I want to own first.Sometimes I ask, what am I doing wrong, and sin what my parents did in the past, so I must bear it all alone,
I did not cry but I regret parting meeting,,,,,,,,I just want to be alone with my all dream!!
Jasmine than,,,
Today, 3 March 2012, the third month in the new year, everyone in the new year hoping to get all the goodness, so do I, but I'm experiencing, I do not know what path I take all this into something that good or bad for my future.A relationship that I have lived for many years, it ended just like that, loyalty and love, it is not enough to sustain a relationship,I'm not willing to be willing to give up my husband fell into the arms of another woman, and on 29 February last I received a document that he and I were officially divorced, I honestly feel hurt, I feel used, it just thinks of me as a complement to life,Life has taught me a lot, life is also treating me very bad, although I always try to do good, honest belief, in a relationship turns out that all is not enough.Honestly, I always promised myself, he's only the first and last man in my life, but I'm not the last woman for him, I love him with all my soul, I believe everything he said even though I know it's all a lie, I was smiling as he say (I want to marry again). God where justice, why did you leave me powerless, always get use from of humans who have no conscience,but I believe this might be the best way that you give, it must be painful, but I'm sure there's a brighter tomorrow, but that so my question, if I was able to forge a new relationship with someone new I know, it's always a so my question, and answer, no, I think it is difficult to present this to fall in love,I believe God will not give you anything I can not afford this road.When best way that you give when I have to stand up, I'm sure I'll live to follow the flow of which you have outlined underlined my fate,was very difficult to leave what we live for this, and we tried it with something new, but I have to stand up for my two daughters, and I prefer to be alone for the moment, there is much beloved, forgive me, because for now I still can not be honest with you, I lied to you, and I know this is going to hurt you, but a relationship based on lies will end up with a very painful feeling it will make you not want to wake up again, and before we go any further, today I'll be honest, I still can not leave the memory of my past, who treated me very bad, I was traumatized by the words of love,I was very afraid because I was a fragile woman, I'm not so tough that you can see, I always give a fake smile, and I do not want it to happen again, some day when you are too tired and left me, maybe by then I did not want living longer, so for now I want to own first.Sometimes I ask, what am I doing wrong, and sin what my parents did in the past, so I must bear it all alone,
I did not cry but I regret parting meeting,,,,,,,,I just want to be alone with my all dream!!
Jasmine than,,,
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
a difficult decision
Today as usual I lead from the start to get up early, preparing for my little girl to school, and today I have to finish all the files, documents, about the legal as Indonesian citizens. if I do not make legal all legal documents, I will lose all the assets that I have here, with financial help from a friend that he was really a friend she was always there when I needed it, she was always there when I'm sad and feeling down, this called a true friend, we are like brother and sister, I with him as my big brother, little by little, I completed all the documents, but there is little that hit my little heart, pain, sadness, feelings that other people may never feel this, I feel do not have anyone, I feel like a human being wasted, to be a persecuted man, so a woman who does not deserves to be a wife, so a woman who does not deserve happiness in a marriage or having a family,I take breath, and ask God, God I'm not a human being and human being who always worship and thank
God I know, I did not ask for anything inappropriate, but if I do not deserve to live happy like everyone else, with all living processes eventually all the way from open, although this is very painful but I have to accept and take a decision, which is very difficult, today I received an official letter of divorce from my husband, it turns out he prefers his wife are there because of money, I hate having to accept all this, I hate how money can buy happiness, I hate being poor if it's love and loyalty is not enough to become a wife who be good..But I believe you are god, that you will not let me fall deeper, with all the legal documents I make, I must have a valid divorce papers, and today on 29 February 2012, I'm officially single,
God I know, I did not ask for anything inappropriate, but if I do not deserve to live happy like everyone else, with all living processes eventually all the way from open, although this is very painful but I have to accept and take a decision, which is very difficult, today I received an official letter of divorce from my husband, it turns out he prefers his wife are there because of money, I hate having to accept all this, I hate how money can buy happiness, I hate being poor if it's love and loyalty is not enough to become a wife who be good..But I believe you are god, that you will not let me fall deeper, with all the legal documents I make, I must have a valid divorce papers, and today on 29 February 2012, I'm officially single,
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