Quiet today

Hello hello all hope this day is full of goodness, these days there is nothing special for me, always the same from start up in the morning, inter-school children, and routine work, but today finally I could finish the work that has been stored, but still there is not yet finished, but today feels lonely, lonely, even my phone does not ring today, maybe they are on a busy, too, to forget just to say hello, even on facebook too, not some jasmine say hello, how are you today this, uhuhuh, once when I was bored, I log in to the website chatt room, Paltalk, but now I'm feeling bored, well sometimes I still go there just simply say hello at my friends there,,, oh today I there put my favori song in my blog,, take a look listen,,,, prosperous greetings


          Jasssssssssss,

Tuesday,i got lovely dream :$

Today as usual I spent aktipitas, waking up at 6, to prepare my kids school, ready to make his lunch, and blah blah,,, keep between them to school, but my body feels unwell this morning, what for a few nights and nearly three nights I could not sleep soundly, but I try to sleep early last night, after a battery talk a little bit with my lover, he also recently came home from work, and the time between our different 7 hours, but there is little question, which I still have not dared to ask , I was afraid he was offended, and angry again, uhhh that last night after he was angry, make him mad, I honestly most males fight, agruemen, for something that is not important, so I'd better shut up, ehhhh me the question, I just want to know what he was doing there,, I mean work, okay then I slept a night earlier than usual, and between the conscious and the dream I saw and met with him, and omg, he kissed me very tenderly, omg until the minute I woke up, I still feel it, his warm hugs and kisses him, lovingly, mmmmmmmmm, makes me always smile alone, all day this Tuesday, has been used to ah,, hahaha ya I have not had time to shower because the weather is not good so little to make me lazy,, ,                                  JASssssyyyyyyy. muaaaaaaah

Two weeks in new year 2012

Two weeks have passed in the new year .That where all the people praying and hoping in the new year given all the good.But back to my life story. Which I feel the same from year to year.What I can not be grateful for. Maybe I still say there is more money, materials in among my friends. But we are human who never get enough with what u have and u get now. So also with myself i always feel the lack of love that I never got from their parents. Until eventually I hope to get happiness of a man but it turns out my pain and my suffering does not stop there. I cheated him.That which in the end I know that he just takes advantage of me and use me as an object.He never treated me as a wife oh Lord  and I just cant stand the pain and helplessness. When I have to accept all her treatments maybe he thinks I'm just a tramp in love enough money and I will dwell. He treat me with no feelings and he made me like I was just a puppet who can he played whenever he likes and he can throw away whenever he gets bored. Lord I know iam not your good people at the end of this last year I met someone who I first saw him. I feel alive again after so long feeling dead a long time in my inprisoned life. But I'm afraid .I falling in love and I'm very scared oh my god. I could not sleep I'm afraid. You give me sweet dream and new hope about love but then u take it and force me.Dump me go to hell.Oh God i love him but i afraid as i know his fellings are same like mine.Iam afraid to hurting him.Coz i know what he is feeling and yes i have the same feeling here. Even we lives so damm far apart from each other. But i can feel when he feel sad and i feel down.OH god protect him for me.Even we just meet in internet and when my destiny bring me go another story and not with him.I hope,, in next life. I want be u first women in your life. Who i can give u full love no matter who u are.Since this morning i feel so bad, sadnnes,sorrow,and yes what i got when i back home from go out with my daughter.I got a bad news and that was hit me so deep but glad Adrian he can relase my bad feelings.I can smile when i hear him singing but i feel sorry Adrian. I have smile in my face but not full like before coz i can't hide my sadnes in my inside.Maybe when u are really here beside me. I just want lean my head on your chest crying so bad u chest to release my grief forever. I make myself feel better writing this blog  like i write my real life diary.I will write again tomorow.  ( love u  Adrian)

SUNDAY IN JCO

Relax in the afternoon this week I bring my child just to brighten up my mind that feels bored, with so many thoughts, so today this week, I tried to find happiness outside a coffee house just unwind during the week, with all routines are boring, while waiting for them to play games, I just sat and drank coffee, and do not forget I brought a notebook, I hope to continue to talk to him,, though I again, outside the home, your, um maybe because the two nights he's not getting enough sleep I think he was tired, so I waited until three hours but he has not woke up, I ended up enjoying greentea freeze, menu special from this place, while I read the blog he is sent via email, um, and I can see real life, sometimes sad, but there is also a romantic,, ehemmmm, who the lucky girls, could steal her heart, and very loving, honest I was a little jealous, hehe, why was not I the first woman to be him choice, uhh, what do you guys know, I know him first before , he refused me hahah, but I'm patiently waiting, okay enough of this story first dial again another time, because we've wanted to go home, and waited for him also do not come,