Friday, May 25, 2012

Dream last night

                                " The Dream "

Nearly one more week and my children unwell, first attacked the youngest daughter, Greclle got a fever that somehow caused what, perhaps carried away from the school environment, or do not know, my daughter continues to Lusy the greatest, but since the first Lusi has never complained or told me not feeling well,And now I also feel the same way, but if I make about me suffering this disease is not much, when compared to what I used to feel, I hope the girls get well and excited to be back to normal,
      Last night after I take the medicine as usual, I fell asleep, but tonight I dreamed a very strange dream I had two like this,I dreamed I saw and felt something very painful to the point without realizing it I was crying in my dream, Oh Lord if you pass this dream shows that virtually all of this pain that I live like this, Give me another way,,You are all-knowing just and wise, I'm sure you are always guiding us, you are holding all the flavors, and also you are able to eliminate all sense of this fact has been almost eight years I lived in pretense, without a definite purpose, and what I really want in life,
     I am a woman who has felt the loss of emotion, love and dream to have a lover I never even imagined,Trauma of the past still makes me wary, and enough to kill all of humanity in the heart of this, He was a man who still haunt my life until now, because I'm not helpless,Because I still need help, so long ago I was dead, alive, in the real nature of my mind I've killed off all the feelings, jealousy, love, hate, I do not feel anything, but in the subconscious, the dream I felt a real sense of how pain I've been avoiding,,Lord you know which one is best for servants, the helplessness that's all I asked, show that the best way for me and my two daughters, and guide me beaten path that you are justified,
  Yes I have twice had this dream, crying in a dream that I have not ever felt this pain in real life,
 God do you show you how sick I felt the truth, my life so far I do not care about, when I saw, heard him happiness with his family, I was blind, a deaf ear to this for my two daughters, very sad indeed, but these were still not over,,But in dreams show how sad you are feeling, Oh god I whole life surrender  in this living a while longer, let me calm in this lonely with two daughters, let I alone bear all this pain, do you give to my two daughters, and give happiness to people who hurt me,,If this path is the choice of my life, false smiles, false all the happiness that I always show, let it like the way that you show, but if there was no way the best show to me, point me where I need to take this life for the sake of my two daughters,,,
          God bless you all,