Thursday, March 22, 2012

2 weeks of very heavy

It seems like everything is still not over, I went through problem after problem with the heart was frozen, with a fake smile that I must give my daughter a second front, and the people around me.after the incident two weeks ago could make me hate it with a friend who blames me for no reason, and finally she came to apologize, and she hides what is actually happening is, ahhhhh I'm tired of the adult human has no brains.
 I own quite tired with all the problems of my life that still could be done, I got the flue virus, the first one of the least of my daughter, was lucky she got well after being taken medicine.while my body ached and I think it's just a common cold, and I try to just take medicine that is always there at home,but it turns out one morning, I felt my vision blurred, my left eye did not clearly see, it turns out right I look in the mirror there is a blood clot in the eye white, mmm I try with regular eye drops as well but it was only briefly recovered, and the next morning I felt there was a strange in my body, dizziness, fever, heat, cold, until I can not stand, but I must stay I should not be sick,and I presume it's just a common cold sore, but it's up to one week, my pain, still have not recovered even worse I feel, but I must be strong and endure for the sake of my two daughters.
 Finally on Tuesday, I fell and fainted in the bathroom, oh god that time no one at home because both my daughter's early morning they had gone to school,I don't knows how long I fell unconscious, I realized it myself, I feel there is someone to wake me up, but no one at home,I really can not stand, my body condition is weak, and I can not act that I just got regular flue, but who can help me, I tried to call my ex-husband, because there is no one who I could ask you please, to take me go doctor,and it turns out he was also busy and told me (tonight I inter) ahh I can not wait until tonight, finally my oldest daughter came home from school, and we went to the doctor, while my little girl she is tutoring so it's time for me to go check all I feel my health is getting worse.The doctor just gave me a kind of pills, pain relievers, and he said I should wait for his test results to three working days.Friday, I received the results of blood tests and everything, and the result was very surprising, I suffer from excess white blood diseases which can cause blood cancer,Friday, I received the results of blood tests and everything, and the result was very surprising,(leukemia), level one, which can still be treated by bone marrow transfusion,ahhh I still do not believe the results of that test, I tried to ignore it, and I continue to consume drugs that doctors give, but I'm getting weaker body condition, although I try to stay I do not want to seem ill woman,finally on Monday I went to another doctor, the hospital is well-known enough, but the result was the same,Physical examination: The doctor checks for swollen lymph nodes, spleen, or liver.
Blood tests: The lab does a complete blood count to check the number of white blood cells, red blood cells, and platelets. Leukemia causes white blood cell count is very high. Also often found low levels of platelets and hemoglobin in red blood cells.

I still have to do some more checking,Biopsy: A biopsy is the only sure way to know whether leukemia cells in your bone marrow. This requires a local anesthetic to help reduce pain. The doctor will take some bone marrow from the hipbone or another large bone. There are two common ways:
 Shit ,,,, I do not believe and I do not want to do it, let all this happen because I know all there is the way, I do not want to stress because of my illness, I do not want my two daughters displaced from the disease, and I do not want to bone marrow transfusion, I just want to see how hard I fight this disease, and I'll still keep smiling.Jasmine,,,,,, keep smiling,,
and embrace your enemies with love,,,although I do not believe in religion, but I believe God, that he would not let me die without seeing my children grown, but it now that I feel, teeth, mouth, nose bleed, my teeth ache, but like i said dohhh, let see , until when I persisted, because of this disease, for treatment instead of a little money, my insurance is not necessarily cover everything, and its crazy I had to go to singapore, ahhh,breaveeeeeeeeeeeeee