Good morning all, been a while I did not write for a little busy with all the routines, I'll try to write again today on the sidelines of the time while keeping my daughter who looks like he is less so healthy, probably because of the weather,
This morning, unlike the usual early morning I went through I woke up late until I had to quickly prepare my child for all purposes of the school who happened to go in the morning, so we woke up late this morning because the night I was with, my children most of her names lucy, we are talking length about how we continue to live without having to rely on others, It's been nearly a week of not sleeping soundly this may be due to stress, and many things to be I think especially for the future of my two daughters, actually I do not want to tell you all these troubles, forgive I am not my boyfriend I do not want to be honest, and not I do not believe it, but I do not want to make you worried, and add to the burden of your mind there, but okay I'll tell you all here and I'm sure you understand Already a week ago I lost my job, because the company where I work got a very severe financial crisis, that day I was devastated, because I count on all of it's finances and former my ex husband stopped sending us money for my child's school fees, Stress, I feel down, it turns out I was not as strong as this, it seems I want to cry as hard as strong, but I was resistant because I did not want my child,,but ultimately I can not stand too, I shut myself in my room and cry, I play music as loud as possible just to cover the sound of my tears, but what I can, after crying,,, I can not answer from this burden, I approached my two daughters , I hug them close and whisper them, (we must be able to live a very cruel is that we are always together) and more importantly the first in my life I felt a calm in the turmoil when I hugged my two daughters, although my heart screaming crying, Lord do not until both my daughter feel what I feel,
Apparently in the new year does not fit as I expect all turned 180 derajat.But I should not be dissolved in grief, I had to get up and think this should be how to determine the path for the sake of my two daughters, let me ignore my personal, which has been so long I do not care , a sense of loneliness a woman, yes I can not fool myself, but after seeing both my daughter smile I am willing to live in loneliness,To my beloved is not there I'm sorry I did not want to tell the truth or not believe, but I'm afraid with all my problems, will make you worry.And I was never told about all my personal problems with my parents own though, I just need time to wake up and stand up straight, smile for the sake of my daughter.And for my two daughters I apologize because I used to regard them only burden in life was when I dropped .but see that I have only them, and those who can make me live until today, when I'm lonely just those who can cheer me up, so they love actually means that I sought was in fact their family,~~~~Jasmine/Lucy/greclle,,,
