I felt like I was no longer able to with stand all loads that had I keep it to my self without daring to tell whoever, but I write my life story here I will feel a little relieved, First I apologize to all my friends, my two daughters, especially to my boyfriend who I know he loves me with all his heart,
And therefore I can not afford to lose him, I did not want to make him upset, I do not want to hurt him, I tell you honestly if I was who I'm, but this morning I reinforced my determination to write this, I'm resigned to if after he read this he will leave me , even though I honestly can not afford to lose.
This morning the weather is a bit dim black cloud, rain, and wind is very strong, felt more pain in my heart, as if nature were weeping with my lack of luck, my ex-husband about why he stopped sending us money, because I asked him two days ago we have meet and talked and I asked that he let go of me completely, and I will no longer receive any gift,,,, Oh I forgot to tell you how my relationship with my ex-husband, once after I decided to part with him, because I could not be reasoned second wife,I think the first part of my life will be free, to choose my future path is free to choose who is going to be my husband, but it turns out all wrong, he's not that easy to let me go, he always follow where the same whom I became friends, even know who he would seek the my boyfriend, of course he still support us finances because we have children,
But because the money that I was caught like a helpless, he seemed to control my life, I like his mistress for five years, but since I did not allow him to touch my body I just give him time to meet with my daughter, And to be honest I still need financial support from him , because my income can not provide for us what my daughter an expensive school, which I think now it's just how I should be happy both my daughter, and I'm willing pawn for the sake of their happiness, my life in prison like I have to bear the pain, jealousy, when I see how happy my ex-husband lives with his family, two days ago we talked and I begged that he left me totally, because once he had said he would not leave me before he saw I had a new husband who can look after and care for my daughter,ready not ready I have to brave step for my future, I have to get up for my daughter, when I realized just who they are I have, I talk to my ex-husband I already have a boyfriends who will love us, a case his own family , even though I own not yet convinced by all of this decision but I have to go from total life without a penny of money I received from him, but it turns out he made me lose my job too, because the boss where I work is his friend, Oh god it turns out he wanted to see how I could live without I hung with him even though his work place, but I let him do what he could to make him happy to see us hard,~~~~~~~~~ i will posting picture my 2 daughter...and this story not end yet,,,,,
