Suffering without end :(, part 2

And it is not the end of all suffering that I hide from my family as well as all my friends they think I'm a lucky woman, had a successful husband, and they think my home life was happy, I'm perfectly hide my disappointment, grief for 4 years I live with my husband that I do not understand what kind of marriage I lived, my health began to improve and I'm 100 percent cured, but I will not get pregnant again, I tried to run it day to two days with my daughter, and as usual my husband to come and go, but one day, he came home with a crate face is unbelievably tired and stressed, I try to ask there what.happent, finally he explained that his company suffered huge losses and threatened with bankruptcy, but behind her face in despair I saw something that weird, guess it is not dashed, he finally asked me to meet with his family in Jakarta not far from our house, just need a 20 minute drive, and what would we really talking to my surprise, I spoke with my uncle and all my husband's family members that exist in Indonesia, while his parents are in Korea,And finally all the secrets that have been revealed already exist in my marriage, my husband's uncle explained that my husband had been married and they have 2 children, but then they separated, but in the present circumstances when their companies went bankrupt my husband's large capital needs and the way one only he should be re-marry his ex-wife, which is where his ex-wife of a rich woman, I was so surprised with all that, there I was alone I was just being forced to sign a letter that I agree that he married again, my world was dark at the time, had no tears I weep for the fate, is imagined in my mind happiness is just my two daughters, I finally signed the letter without me reading it, I came home with the feeling that devastated but I stand next to my two daughters do not cry, I gave my husband fell into the arms of another woman for the sake of material , Oh god, what is actually happening, after marriage my husband with his ex-wife the less he came home to see us, what more for a family road show, he came just a few hours just to vent his passion to me, and after that he left, then I just as a place of impingement him when he needed a woman to satisfy, because I'm sure he did not get from his wife who was much older than me, I felt not a wife anymore, I'm her only as a prostitute when she needed him to come and continue to go regardless of my feelings,my life is ruined, but still you keep this secret, I became my own husband's mistress, ohh this is very embarrassing, painful, at last I dared to speak Apparently my husband that I was already pretty tired of this charade of marriage, I asked him to leave me, and let I stood with my two daughters, for their future life I'm willing to suffer, I finally managed to get out of that house, without letting my husband know but apparently he managed to find me, and what happened, he was getting mad, he makes my life like in prison , in hell, where I'm going always there is stalking me, one day I finally met a man who loves me with my two daughters also promised to eventually take me out of Indonesia, but what happened, so my husband knows, I lost him for forever, it turns out my husband had meet and they could be making an agreement that he should not be in touch with me, he was a citizen, the United Kingdom, finally my life back to my evil husband, helplessly, my life is full of fear, hatred, revenge. embedded in my mind, one day I will kill my husband,!!!