continuation~~~

turns out that a mobile phone prize, and a ring, hmmm I was thinking what all that meant, I'm still puzzling over, suddenly the phone rang, and as soon as I answer the voice of the young entrepreneur's ahhh, finally he explained about the ring , he proposed to me, ahh this really funny story, when I had time to think of him as a perfect man and eventually he liked me and wanted to marry me, ahhn luck what I can in this year, I ended a relationship with him, he often came to Indonesia than business, he also came to see me,  automatic my financial life is guaranteed, he forbade me to go back to work, and I stopped working, he bought me a house in elite area, a car, and all the needs of life is guaranteed, at the time our relationship was just 8 months, but I'm a very lucky woman, and of course family got prosperous life, but my stepmom's ambitions are not quite up there, she continued to blackmail me until the goods are items in my new house he was brought home to his house,I ended up feeling really sick, tired with this life that continues to be a cash cow without my family they care about how I feel, or my future, with feelings, ashamed and as if forced, I speak to my beloved, ehh for 8 months we had no sex I never sleep with him because I always said I would give my virginity to the man who would become my husband, not to the lover,  him can give me anything but he could not buy my dignity with his money, I finally spoke to him that I was desperate to get married, on the grounds we've been long enough in a relationship, whereas a clear reason that I avoid my stepmother demand, finally on 20 December 2003 he came to Indonesia and we went to my parents house to determine the day of our wedding, and what happened to my stepmom was shocked , because she thought that if I marry I will stop automatically sending money to her,ensued on the wedding day on 23 December 2003, a very lively party, then I feel I am the happiest woman in this world, I could be the perfect wife of a man, but in the wedding that I feel there is something odd , my husband came with their friends, mostly foreigners, but I was too naive to ask for it all, at night when the party is still going on my husband took me back to jakarta our return home, at last night we went to jakarta night's first marriage, and that's what I expect I'm free from my parents, my home until we were pretty tired, I just want to sleep and I do not care about that night was the first night of marriage, a moment I exchange clothes, my husband came into chamber and talk, sorry I have to go to thailand, ahh I did not get to ask because I see he was busy packing, finally my wedding night I spent alone,I do not know what my husband's job while he worked at his family's company, a large company that controls asian, and I never care about it, that I care I began to feel very often I lost her, she came to see me only 3 times a week, and that too he never staying in my house until the morning, he just comes, dinner, make love and go, I started to feel lonely any more until the age of 3 years of my marriage but I tread still not pregnant, I spent time out with my friends to gather to drink and get drunk, go to the bar, discotik, Hanyan to relieve boredom at home waiting for my husband, but I never intend to go out with another man, even though I was in a drunken state had never occurred, I fill my loneliness by having an affair, I too love my husband, he is saving lives My only that which exists in my mind and I promise I will not disdaining even though he was rarely with me,~~~>