Today, precisely on Saturday, the weekend I went to a small town that once I had felt the stories of life that is attractive, even to remember it I do not want to, I grew up in this town with no affection of a family, yes people live here people who I consider to be family, but in fact they are someone else,they raised me, but eventually they destroy my future, but let's all gone, let's just say I am a man who had no luck, I left my parents, and I have to live with other people who I always thought they were family to me, until I finally understand, and I'm still looking for who I was,Today I'm back here, not for the holiday, I came here to go to the hospital, to perform the injection in the spine, because the pain I suffered, I am referring physician at jakarta come to the hospital in Bandung, because it's close to home I am, so I'm not so difficult, at least I could save my expenses a bit, so do not pay the hospital for me to stay there,,I myself feel very scared, scared that I had to cover it, I need someone who can I hold her hand when I felt this pain, but who? I do not have anyone who, very sad indeed is my fate, when I feel sick, I still have to pretend I'm strong,I could be their protector the people around me, I try to make them smile, but when I need someone to protect me, I still own it!,Behind the fun day for the people around me, I bear the pain, feeling sad, I do not understand why this fate, in the crowd but I feel myself, sometimes I feel tired, with all these life stories, but I still want see my two daughters grow up,of the doctors pronounced me suffering from blood cancer (leukemia) Chronic lymphocytic leukemia, a rare disease that affects adults like me,but this happens to me, the last 3 months I started to feel something is wrong with my body, I began to feel very tired, there is some swelling in the groin, nose kept bleeding, prolonged fever, duhhh but I have to stay afloat, to be like I'm a healthy man,I'm selfish, yes, because I do not want people worrying about me, or they feel sorry, ohh noo, I'm still strong, while I was still able to run, I will not ask for pity, because I realized I was living alone, and treatment for this, not was little, I spent my savings bnayak, because the insurance that I ask, can not cover all costs I had to do, nor is it only for the cost to the hospital, the cost of everything, from meals and fees, ahhh just tired of god,Sometimes I think, if I do not have a daughter, I want it to end this life, to end all suffering, but whether it would ever end? Lucky I met a friend who always gave me when I was deep passion, give me the spirit, that I still too young to despair, I yakn god would not let me in the long-suffering,Well I hope a speedy recovery, and to all friends of friends, may God protect and keep it healthy
