Update End of the week!!

hello all, ahh I have not updated this blog, because the bussy, yeah as a mother and father for a child, I have not had time to write, since the last time, also with a feeling that is always uncertain, today finally I joined yoga class again, 1 week after I quit, that I feel in this week, I'm not in the mood to talk, joke as usual, I'm curious what's wrong with me now,?? if I changed, but it does happen, what I used to love to talk, joke together my friend, even though it's just chatting, I was very entertained, ahhhh maybe age and have a total life change myself to be more mature, I just want to apologize for all my friends and also my beloved, if I was a little different these days, lazy to talk to just throw time, while I had been long enough to waste my time in vain, without doing anything useful for my future and my children,
  Is near the end of the week again, do not feel the time is so fleeting, and I just wasting my time, without producing anything,, oh, it's strange but it's real, I do not feel happy anymore what the name suggests, love, love as if he no longer touches I feel, I feel, I enjoy my solitude, with dance music remixes that can make me excited, but the question is, where are the feelings that I had always wanted,, ahhhh maybe like I said earlier, time, age, everything has changed,I used a lovely woman, I always try how to make happy those who are near me, but now what you feel, I feel empty without passion, mmmmm what is due to a past that always makes me so it makes me eclipsed trauma, to start something new, I find it very hard, did all the work that seems to have started to fall, bengkrup,, uhhh,, where jasmine, everyone I know these are tough and strong woman, but in fact, I'm a weak woman, sorry to all of them, if I want to own these days, I need some time alone, contemplating my future, have fun it's not the time anymore, I have to prepare myself for the target this year, I have managed as a single parent , my dreams just want to see my children succeed, I break happiness of my time just for them, God and the prayer accompanying this my good purpose, embarked all, I do not want the others,Update weekend,,hopefully with my loneliness I could better understand who I was and what do I want in this life, because I'm sure no one could help or assist, but ourselves, for me at this time, something called enjoyable, fun, it's just a waste of time game I can not sit front of a computer without producing anything, while life must continue,,, ahhhh first I still feel all of that makes me have fun,, but now,, i don't know what i feel,,, and I'm sure everyone would feel boredom, and my time has come,, bored with the whole hog that I know it's just a fake, I'm tired of lying to my feelings, I'm tired of smiling when I'm in a bad mood, bored with everything, ahhhh let me try a new jasmine will fix everything back,.,,, hope awesome weekend all,,,

a quiet night

last night I did not get to write the story, where I went or what I do at home, I feel tired, fatigued, I just lock myself in my room after a bath I think it might make me calm down, play music, not the least I touch my computer, on when I want to open the phone, ohh shit my emal account there was a change passwort, so automatically I can not use all the applications on the phone, I automatically have to reset all the risks I have to lose all existing data on the phone, I had sent text on my boyfriend just to make sure that I am here still alive, because all day I just shut down after a night I was with him online on Paltalk, before I fell asleep and on her private cam in it so I woke up my camera was off and the website was still on,
  okay then I try to reset my phone regulatory factory, so everything is like new, then I have to download all applications including Paltalk moblle, but that made me surprised when I go online and talk to my boyfriend, he said he could see me online in the mobile phone, of course I'm surprised, but as usual I'm ready to listen to what he's talking about, I'm too tired to agrue, and to explain, let him keep with what all of his convictions, even though I denied it was not possible because he said several minutes later I was sent text him on the phone, ohh shit why should this continue,, even though my intentions were good text him because I said I love you, but what I get,, nothing his sent me back text,but I think maybe he's busy, but I was wrong,, ahhhhhh some thing would happen but I'm going I'm going to try to calm down, despite my state of confusion, sadness and hate, but I can not hide sometimes I'm quiet, but what if he does not see my eyes swollen from crying, ahhhhh it turns out he did not notice it and I try cover with me wearing glasses, but his attitude is always rapidly changing, without asking for an explanation and where I am and why, oh god I hope he knows, I was again in a state that very fragile and hurt I need him to protect me, I need him to lean though only in the shadows, I need him for strength to stand up from a sense of depression, but it turns out he also seemed in a state of distress, okay I understand, ... I'm online just now to meet with him, but there are times when I need to touch the computer itself, i not even want  to talk to children  even I can not, I hope one day he would be more understanding,, when I'm happy and when I'm sad,,, ,, I love you,,,
                 Jasmine