"When you meditate on this feeling fortunate life, every breath of mine is happiness"
Humans are often not aware of the breath, like a fish in the water is not aware of where he is, Do we realize that our lives had been lucky? Am I conscious? This question is very important, what I feel when the hurt? Naturally sad, then, what I feel when I know that people are hurting it did have a major problem? there may be a sense of pity,
Resentment and hatred are the result of ignorance, unawareness in this case is to not know what is really happening to me and in others,,Peaceful heart is an understanding heart, not quick to anger when "putridity" in the life to come, the Self me now is the result of maturation, maturation of a number of pain I have ever experienced, from a number of disappointments is delivered by another person into my life,
Now began my experience peace, feel the calmness in the sense, that the Lord cast me, it was my chance to bow down and go back to him, there is nothing good all planned glory, In the past I could blame God and the destiny seemed unfair for me, When I turn over all my devotion to my husband and I'm sure one day all will change, but God had other plans, he took the people who really I need where I lean this life, so it turns out I was wrong, now that I realize that we are not able to hang happiness and our lives to humans, because we all must die,, And what I feel,, I just like some LOSS, when he gone, when God take him,,
As a human being I could blame God, depression, fear of the future, afraid of what I would do when He died, often the questions that now I think is not very good, why God is not fair, why did God take him when me and my son they desperately need a figure of a husband and a father,
I feel all left me, friends, relatives who had felt close in the end they leave me, but one that makes me emerge from the downturn, turned out that God never left me, and this is all like a miracle, I got up for the sake of children who still need me when they feel the loss of a father, whether they also have to feel the loss figure of a mother, when I feel really fell, fell, as if nothing longer for me to live, lucky God was reminding me and hit me, the second daughter is an encouragement and a sense I raised upright God with all of this, because I'm sure you must be behind this store better plan for us,,
Self-awareness that I wake up from the downturn, makes me stronger, I prayed only "God give me more power so I can prostrate"
"The emergence of feelings of sadness"
"I had the authority to control my feelings, because this is so should, for the happiness of my life"\
When I feel sadness, feeling as if someone else had never felt, when feel life is no certainty, I asked myself, actually want me for? Is there someone who can help me? pretends to be happy have often done, but did not succeed, even I was lying to myself,___
When I feel sad, wants to feel happy in a good way, but as if but everyone as if no one understands, as I feel everyone is busy with their problems respectively, while I was losing control of myself, and feel there are no people who care about me anymore, where I started to find the God that is always there in the soul that I believe in,\
Honestly at that time I needed someone to help me, wake me up when I fell, but then again it makes me even feel tired___
Finally, I return to the Lord, O Lord strengthen me, I want to come back as happy as when I was a child who innocently makes me think, important I am, for the world and for my children, I really want to know what the meaning of life, When I lost someone which means a lot, now I feel I lost the wings to achieve the future, but in the blink of an eye I started to wake up again, I can not hang my life to humans....
Finally I decided trying to keep happy is better than regretting what has happened, hopefully there is the best way of all the events that happened to me, I am calm, I have an upright, patience, prayer and faith that God gives the trials would not go beyond the boundaries of man himself___
But of course we are ordinary people who in seeking efforts happiness, sometimes we are wrong to take the decision to be saying, and I got stuck back into mine who used to be filled with glamor, go to nightclubs with friends, who they were not a friend, because there is a friend that will trap us to fall over fall when we are in the process of repair,,but it's all I make as a new journey of my life, being a single mom, I regained consciousness but if when it's too late, but not too late for us to realize all the mistakes before he died we pick,,
" The experience of falling in love can fix my faith "
I continue my story with an experience, the pain that favors,,maybe when I tell a new story of my life journey, you will pout, mocking me, but here I will honestly tell and this is me make a long experience, old story repeating itself when my husband's death seven months ago__
But I will not blame you, exactly two months ago, when I really feel fall, lonely, life seemed meaningless, when I needed someone, I met someone who seemed to welcome and accept me as I am, come up with a figure very similar with my late husband, from his attitude to treat me, He came as God in order to protect, replacement figure that had been taken from me,,introduction unintentionally make me fall asleep, actually I'm still in the shadow of my late husband in a figure he just call him "Mr right" I began to feel the love, the fear of losing again like before, I began with a variety of ways to maintain the happiness I once this, because I'm sure I'm still not too late, to re-establish a connection,
of introductions inadvertently continue into the relationship, which is getting serious, but when I started to fall asleep with feel it, though again remember right I love stories I had in the past with the deceased, who was very beautiful, suddenly the Lord back to wake me, I realize that "Mr right" single but not avalible, means that he is not alone, that before I was present in his life, there was already someone who filled his life and probably very meaningful for him, I fell back with a hole the same as a few years ago, until I think about how stupid I am, how could I get stuck again after I try to be aware and to rise from the loss, arises a sense of regret that is not measurable and confusion, because when I started to feel the presence God is in my faith, I now faltering again, I'm sick again, but I feel now the pain is very delicious, While I hold this chest, thank God you're back made me realize,
But at the same time, I still feel curious, the feeling of a normal human being who wants to be loved, that I should be aware of a loss, but the name I'm an ordinary human consciousness which sometimes arrive late,, when I most feel helpless, but now with more thought positive, nothing I blame in this case, I began to realize, that God brought us together is not without reason, he comes in when I start to rise from adversity, and as if repeating old story that could make me fall, but how foolish of her to me, because I actually fall asleep with the same situation as 14 years ago that made my life destroyed to date, And Mr. Right comes as the return of my late husband with a different figure___
I ll continue writing about Mr Right,, was open my mind and how to life
