Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Last night

Last night I felt uncomfortable, I was asleep, after dinner, my ex-husband came for me to cook and eat at home, Lord I feel upset, confused, what exactly you plan to all of life I, even I still do not know what I was actually going to live a life, all seem to have in sight, but it was very hard to achieve it, there are actually some guy who was with me, I'm talking about the real world I'm not the online world that I'm involved in it,
 I do not deny in the online world was I ever fall in love, but I realize it's all just a game, but all I know, although we know from the online world, we can know their characters what they are doing, in his daily life, and we can assess them quickly, if they have an excess or just some thing that is not useful, is not important, ahhh but that's not important to me, I'm here just still finding ways of life of future me, because I know all there is in our own hands,,,All, failure, success in our lives, it is because our own sense of grief because of our own happiness, there is no interference of others, what are you doing today tomorrow you will reap the results, this is the life we can not deny it. sometimes I just bury all desire, and I think it's just ambition, a desire that I do not understand it, it turns out after I learn, a desire that was not bad,we are free to want something more than what we have now, although it seemed quite impossible, but with faith and prayer, I'm sure it will be realized,
I've always felt I was old enough to just dream of wanting something more than what I can now, after I read and saw so many people who are older than me, they are still ambitious, apparently instill a sense of satisfaction with the present situation it is stupid, according to the books I've read, no time limited to a desire, a desire to live better, live in luxury, it just takes work, effort, and pray, go for what you want for this, and you will be blamed for stopping now and is satisfied with what you can today, make yourself valuable, can make a proud people around you,but still so many of all the friends I was, there seemed to be that he gets discouraged with all of his life, I like to listen to see what they do and sometimes I want to be a good listener for all my friends, because of it all I got a lesson new,have a friend who every time we talked I saw he seemed depressed, with the failure of the life of his love life,when what I know he's still young enough to despair, he had a job and a good income, why he was so depressed, just because a girl, I say he is stupid, he seemed to have close access to his life, he had not believed, that what he experience today is all because of his own fortune too see other people and never see how lucky he is, he did not see many men in the age old enough, they do not have anything,,he did not see people who are less fortunate than himself, hey look at your friends are still many among us whose lives are further bad but they are still able to walk with they dreams,so much experience and knowledge I can from all friends, some are there only life there, he was quite proud of the pa which he has now, dreaming, lying to yourself, but you do not care about all that's what I want me to be a friend for them, be good listener, and can make them happy when you are near me