lost smile in my face :(

This morning I felt a little sad, feeling down, so to see him as still doubt all of this love, but I will remain silent, and see what will happen tomorrow, today I immediately can not smile as usual, love is back hurt me slowly slowly, which I loved, and I was afraid of losing him, oh Lord only you know it all, give us a way to be together peacefully, if indeed he was the last man in my life, but I'll save the most enduring in the hearts diary one word, I love him, even if we can not unite in this life may we meet in later life,, merry xmas,, for all my lovely friend,,for me xmas, or all Big day all same, not have any party, or with someone special, we have quiet xmas,quiet weekend, from long time ago,,,