"New year 2017"
  

The new year, 2017, I arrived in this year, although it has too many memories in recent years, nearly two years already I live really alone,since the death of my husband, I am increasingly aware of this life requires someone or maybe I do not need anybody else, but as a human being I still can not control emotions, desires that I consider it humane!! Here I just want to put my feelings sometimes I feel tired of life, which is where I feel alive without hope,I never felt what it was the sense of depression, feeling of injustice this life, when we needed a father, husband, life partner for me, but life grabbed by force,I feel concern about the future of my children, worries about me getting older!!

but day by day, month, year gave way, all those feelings slowly began to change with positiv thoughts, I began to learn to take lessons from all that happened,,,Maybe I began to understand the meaning of a loss, the meaning of life, even though I involuntarily in and my children are forced to mature in this life,as once I discussed writing earlier, after I knew God, I felt everything becomes easier, the guidelines of my life just for one day, I was no longer interested to think about the future too long, I could think of was how the morning when I woke I can still see my children happy smiles,,

Thank God that today I can still see them smile, even though sometimes I feel moved, at their age like today need to feel her cruel world, but I believe in my God is too great when compared with all of life's problems,,,
OH ,,, I forgot to write something about my personal that maybe you would think it was funny or I was too quick to move on, after the departure of my husband, I've tried several times to establish a relationship but I do not feel confident relationship to work,,,

because I do not feel confident with my feelings, I often ask myself, whether hubungin this happens only because when I feel lonely, needy, or love, but the few times I tried it and the answer (I was in a state of loneliness) that indeed I was not ready to re-establish relations seriose!!

and I realized, those who come and go in life just giving a lesson or a test of my own feelings, that if I'm confident with my feeling at this time or just need them and end up disappointed, feeling guilty at my children, to be honest I often feel a sense of where I was disappointed with myself!!

But now is the time I should be firm, strong for myself and my two daughters, I should be a good example for them, is not easily fooled with his own feelings, more focused with the aim kehud will to carry it,,,,,,,,,,,,NO time play game anymore,, I need proof the life I can standing,I can run and i still strong,after all strom hit my life,

because after the rain there must be a bright << ,, THIS LIFE ANYONE CAN FEEL THE SAME WAY BUT JUST HOW WE CAN SURVIVE OR JUST STUCK ,IN SAME SITUATION!!

Tired minds

                                               "Tired minds"
""What has the Lord has entrusted to me, I should be thankful for and I watch, other than I enjoyed, including my mind, I'm responsible nurture"
     "Human beings are thinkers, this is different from the other creatures, human beings have reason and logic, but every human being should be able to keep his mind well, keeping the mind by which I mean is, rest your mind__I wish to inform a very important thing, when the mind is too tired, working morning, noon, night, makes people angry, because we humans experience the two modes, namely mode of thinking and mode of feeling, when you're thinking, it means not to feel, when 'at  feeling ya mean not think,,,
 Then we certainly remember when we're feeling tired are usually irritable or touchy,

because it again do not want to think, after tired of thinking, then people will feel, therefore if someone we saw being tired do was try to reprimand him, in the end we need to rest our minds, if this happens to us, we just need a break , take time off for a while, when the mind is tired, we played a feeling, this is a condition that is most susceptible to new emotional wounds_____

So the main factor that made us fall, is not the size of the problem, but depend on when we face the problem that, if we're thinking, problem going for anything would not be too hard to deal with, but when I'm not thinking, being badmood, problems small will feel great, being bitten by a mosquito can cause anger,lol__

                              "Feeling tired"

 "A sense that I felt was proof that I was the most beautiful of God's creatures, as they may feel is a gift, then I wear as much as you"_______

Have you ever heard of feeling tired, I've been, and probably in other words, "my heart is tired" !! yes this is me, people who often wear feeling will usually be easy to feel tired and will feel very tired,, I describe here does not mean we should not take the feelings,When we often use sentimentality,often listening to people vent, "why why so, be sure that your question, it is not permissible, however when most of the old-time feeling we'll get burned, for example we listen to the vent, and we do not Science knows detox inhabitants, it happens, all the rants that will litter in our souls, like we have a trash can, you tormented him fresh!!

  I used it often feels like it, even when my circumstances in difficult circumstances though, they came as friends with different problems and in the end I being their trash cans, even be called a place where they ask for help in every way, I used feel angry, and always think about whether I'm too good or stupid, because when I'm short, there are still many people who come up with a variety of issues ranging from material problems til personal problems,

But as I understand the science of detox soul, I understand and am grateful, because I'm sure God knows better I was given more power than them, When I started to feel tired, do not forget I smile and thank God, because I was given more power to date this, and I do not humble myself again by piece rupiah___________Yeah even though life is not better than them, but instead I could try with hands, feet and mind healthy, clearer felt I began to pursue the return of meditation and it makes my heart calm in all exams in God, even more grateful to what we have now than to think about what we do not have, yeah even though until now I still do not have a job,But I have one belief, God dropped me, that I could dig my identity and something very valuable than the years that had I passed,,,

We may have a scenario like this, like that in our lives, but many have become our plans are not in accordance with God's plan, I always believe in, whatever that happens to us is the result of our own actions, so the ignorance that failure we face blame others, and remember one thing, it's most convenient saw others__________ see ya later for now